We (inside thoughts)

we are passing each other

while our shadows tangle..


falling leaves sing
under the foot of passengers
mild sun rays are crossing the skin of the face
i hear the notes of a faraway land
echoing inside of me
i sense the touch
of a faraway hand

is this me
am i the one
who's shoes were torn apart so many times
from running
running away

is this me
am i the one
who's left asleep in a dream of another being


They say, I've heard
that after two people are making love
their spirits left tangled
for the next seven years
after their bodies separate..

I do not know how many years they stay gathered
if those two are in love at the same time
but I hope in two years
I will become forever free
from you
inside me..

photo: sadness
by Lavinia

You know?

there is no day
that i do not think of you..

sometimes just the smell in the air seems familiar, reminds me of
moments when i was breathing your presence

sometimes it is the touch of the usb rope
that u gave me with all those videos on it

sometimes i look at myself and remember
this red sweater was given to me by you

did i ever tell you i love to wear it
on my naked skin
it feels so good knowing it was once
carried by your hands..

sometimes it is just something you said to me
that i notice it echoes within me

sometimes, it is ur smile in my mind
the fire in your eyes the darkness of ur
beautiful soul..

i hear..
u moved on..
u have another son..
u r happy with her
she is in good relationship
with ur ex wife
and your three kids
it makes u satisfied

is it true?
i have no idea
why i doubt that...

i want to believe u moved away from that cursed place where
we loved each other
as i am fully aware it is the past
that five years of dust
covered diligently

u are still in my heart
and somehow, sometimes
i know i am still in yours...

Photo: Salvador Dali: Persistence of Memory, 1931.

Eco-Friendly Cars on Air

Air Cars: A New Wind for America's Roads?
by Jim Ostroff
Thursday, October 30, 2008

Courtesy of MDI

A new carmaker has a plan for cheap, environmentally friendly cars to be built all over the country.

An air-powered car? It may be available sooner than you think at a price tag that will hardly be a budget buster. The vehicle may not run like a speed racer on back road highways, but developer Zero Pollution Motors is betting consumers will be willing to fork over $20,000 for a vehicle that can motor around all day on nothing but air and a splash of salad oil, alcohol or possibly a pint of gasoline.

The expertise needed to build a compressed air car, or CAV, is not rocket science, either. Years-old, off-the-shelf technology uses compressed air to drive old-fashioned car engine pistons instead of combusting gas or diesel fuel to create a burst of air to do the same thing. Indian carmaker Tata has no qualms about the technology. It has already bought the rights to make the car for the huge Indian market.

The air car can tool along at a top speed of 35 mph for some 60 miles or so on a tank of compressed air, a sufficient distance for 80% of consumers to commute to work and back and complete daily chores.

Courtesy of MDI

On highways, the CAV can cruise at interstate speeds for nearly 800 miles with a small motor that compresses outside air to keep the tank filled. The motor isn't finicky about fuel. It will burn gasoline or diesel as well as biodiesel, ethanol or vegetable oil.

This car leaves the highest-mpg vehicles you can buy right now in the dust. Even if it used only regular gasoline, the air car would average 106 mpg, more than double today's fuel sipping champ, the Toyota Prius. The air tank also can be refilled when it's not in use by being plugged into a wall socket and recharged with electricity as the motor compresses air.

Automakers aren't quite ready yet to gear up huge assembly line operations churning out air cars or set up glitzy dealer showrooms where you can ooh and aah over the color or style. But the vehicles will be built in factories that will make up to 8,000 vehicles a year, likely starting in 2011, and be sold directly to consumers.

There will be plants in nearly every state, based on the number of drivers in the state. California will have as many as 17 air car manufacturing plants, and there'll be around 12 in Florida, eight in New York, four in Georgia, while two in Connecticut will serve that state and Rhode Island.

The technology goes back decades, but is coming together courtesy of two converging forces. First, new laws are likely to be enacted in a few years that will limit carbon dioxide emissions and force automakers to develop ultra-high mileage cars and those that emit minuscule amounts of or no gases linked with global warming. Plug-in electric hybrids will slash these emissions, but they'll be pricey at around $40,000 each and require some changes in infrastructure -- such as widespread recharge stations -- to be practical. Fuel cells that burn hydrogen to produce only water vapor still face daunting technical challenges.

Second, the relatively high cost of gas has expedited the air car's development. Yes, pump prices have plunged since July from record levels, but remain way higher than just a few years ago and continue to take a bite out of disposable income. Refiners will face carbon emission restraints, too, and steeply higher costs will be passed along at the pump.

Tata doesn't plan to produce the cars in the U.S. Instead, it plans to charge $15 million for the rights to the technology, a fully built turnkey auto assembly plant, tools, machinery, training and rights to use trademarks.

The CAV has a big hurdle: proving it can pass federal crash tests. Shiva Vencat, president and CEO of Zero Pollution Motors, says he's not worried. "The requirements can be modeled [on a computer] before anything is built and adjusted to ensure that the cars will pass" the crash tests. Vencat also is a vice president of MDI Inc., a French company that developed the air car.

The inventor of this technology is Mr. Guy Negre, who is the founder and CEO of MDI SA, a company headquartered in Luxembourg with its R and D in Nice, France.
Copyrighted, Kiplinger Washington Editors, Inc.

Can you imagine what this would mean for the planet and the air :)?
I mean, Carbon Zero :))
Would you like to grab one of these?
I SO Would!!
Hope Europe will follow India and America on this one - soon ;)



I'm so in love with the World.. I wish to say I love you to every man I meet, to every child, just to embrace him, to every women that walks in the street, to every tree, if I could speek
its language..

I'm so in love with everything I see, I know it sounds crazy but
it is how I feel
In Love with Life, with its extraordinery flow, in love with the Stars,
in Love with the Sun that shines so bright
in love with the Moon
and its magical glow..

I could go on and on, don't know if it has any sense.. and perhaps
this is not a song at all...
for how can I sing
about something
so immence...

A Birth of a Star

the morning is in birth pain..

through the red hot hole of the sky
it is giving a birth to a day ..

photo by Lavinia
(view tru' my window;)


Britney Spears - Everytime...

Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby


There is No Love Above the Truth

simple beauty by lavinia
photo by Lavinia.


Do you know that moment when lovers meet after a long separation
when they touch each others hands
and place a small kiss upon the others cheek

How the Sun starts to shine stronger
and the waterfalls to run smoother
and the rainbow appears high on the sky
the Earth stops for a little while
to see how they mirror
into each others eyes
diving deep
to meet ones own soul
somewhere inside

How the butterflies become full of joy
while laying upon the vividest petals
as their hearts are beating faster
as their love is growing stronger
as their desire is burning the ice
of those cold, cold, lonely nights

How everything is there,
just there, beside you
and everything you ever wished for
is simply embracing you


So, we have to say goodbye now?
After those moments of passion
and your sweet embrace
After those nights of longings
and your invisible touch
Is it over..
Closed doors, closed heart,
my hand in the air
empty is it now..

My friend
whom I passionately loved
even I knew
how wrong it is..
wrong was it
I do not know

So many years we flew through this stream
we knew
there , somewhere out there
is one heart
is one soul
that loves me
with true and free love
pure as a teardrop of a child

And then we broke the vows we gave to truth
we took a moment out of life
and gave our souls to flame that has burnt us

Silence is all that's left
is it not

God knows how this hurts
and still there is nothing else left
for me to do

but to let you go
from my inner world..

to bury you somewhere deep
where even I will be able to forget you..

I loved you,
was I not

I'll kiss you in my thoughts for one last time,
as a friend whose passed away..

Perhaps we'll see us once again,
shall we not
in some far away land of remembering



be careful of my heart

Lament to freedom

Originally uploaded by virginiaz.


Dream, laugh, go lightly, solitary, free,

With eyes that look straight forward--fearless voice!

To cock your beaver just the way you choose,--

For 'yes' or 'no' show fight, or turn a rhyme!--

To work without one thought of gain or fame,

To realize that journey to the moon!

Never to pen a line that has not sprung

Straight from the heart within. Embracing then

Modesty, say to oneself, 'Good my friend,

Be thou content with flowers,--fruit,--nay, leaves,

But pluck them from no garden but thine own!'

And then, if glory come by chance your way,

To pay no tribute unto Caesar, none,

But keep the merit all your own! In short,

Disdaining tendrils of the parasite,

To be content, if neither oak nor elm--

Not to mount high, perchance, but mount alone!


Long time ago someone said to me:
Yearning for love Is love...

But I wonder.. isn't it actually its absence?

fact that i love you means nothing

if I cannot touch your face
and look deeply into your eyes
travelling through your soul
into depths where no one yet
has come

if I cannot lay my hand
onto yours and hold your fingers a while
feeling the flow that is connecting us
even when we are miles apart
from each other

if I cannot embrace you around your hips
slowly crawling my fingers under your shirt
to feel the destroyable
tenderness of your skin
like before


where is she?

This time

This time I will only be
Let the centuries flow through the vastness of the soul
Let the worlds collide somewhere else
Let the wars calm down
and the warriors through their weapons away

This time
Only silence will merge with the beats of this heart
only stars will shine outside and within

Oro - Jelena Tomasevic - Eurovision 2008

I love you, Serbia...


Evrovizija 2008 Finale

Izvođač: Jelena Tomašević
feat. Bora Dugić
Naslov pesme: Oro
Tekstopisac: Dejan Ivanović
Kompozitor: Željko Joksimović

Ko li miluje
milo moje
Ko li usne te snene budi
Ne zaboravi ime moje
Kada krene da
da te ljubi

moje ne spavaj
Njega ljubi
mene uspavaj

Ne lomi mi led
vodu nema
Ne soli mi ranu
suza nema
Ko li zaigra
oro moje
Neka ne igra za nas dvoje
Klasje, mene uspavaj

Nuna nej, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu nej
Nuna nej, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu nej
Na Vidovdan
probudi me
Da ga opet pogledam

Nuna nej, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu nej
Nuna nej, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu nej

Na Vidovdan
Probudi me
Da ga opet pogledam

Na Vidovdan
Probudi me

Još jednom, da ga pogledam


Eurovision Song Contest 2008 Final

Performer: Jelena Tomašević
feat. Bora Dugić
Song title: Oro
Song writer(s): Dejan Ivanović
Song composer(s): Željko Joksimović

Whom is caressing
My dearest one,
Whom is awaking those dreamy lips
Do not forget my name
When it reaches for..
for kissing you

Of mine, do not sleep
Kiss him,
Put me to sleep

Do not break my ice
It has no water
Do not put solt on my wound
There are no tears
Whoever would start dancing
my ‘oro’ (traditional dance)
May they not dance for the two of us
My wheat, put me to sleep

Nuna ney, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu ney
Nuna ney, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu ney (lalluby)
On a St. Vitus’s day
Wake me up
To look at him again…

Nuna ney, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu ney
Nuna ney, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu ney

On a St. Vitus’s day
Wake me up
To look at him again…

On a St. Vitus’s day
Wake me up

Once again, to look at him…

...translated by Lavinia

* Vidovdan (St. Vitus's Day) 28th June > http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vidovdan

After a while

"After a while you learn the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and
that company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up
and your eyes open and with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow`s ground is too uncertain for your plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.

So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you will learn that you can endure that you really are special
and that you really do have worth.
So live to learn and know yourself.
In doing so, you will learn to live."

Veronica A. Shoffstall


To All Orthodox Christians Wishing a Very Happy Easter!!
Christ has Risen :)!!

Descent into Hades, detail of the Resurrection fresco from Serbian 14th century monastery Visoki Decani, Kosovo-Metohija, Serbia.



May I go back
to my childhood ? ..

My heart was pure and innocent

and clear
like a dewdrop
on a mountain

The Truth

"Yes, I will leave you. It is better for both of us"
"Yes, life without you is so much better. Our energies collide and make us go slower"
"Yes, it is really better without you.. I will stop seeing you."
"Yes, I want a divorce. I feel how I wish to finally make things clear"


Who is this talking?
Who is the one promising?
Who is the one that is real? The one who lives here and now..

They are not the same.
And bodies never lie.

And can someone be free
when he is not free from his own weaknesses?..........................

My weakness by ~Lady-Sue on deviantART

Frou Frou: Let Go


Drink up baby down
Mmm are you in or out
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you

Excuse me
Too busy
Writing your tragedy
These mishaps
You bubble wrap
When you've no idea what you're like...

So let go (let go)
Jump in
Oh well whatcha waiting for
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

So let go (so let go)
Just get in
Oh it's so amazing here
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

It gains the more you give
and it rises with the fall
So hand me that remote
Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow

Such boundless pleasure
We've no time for later now
You can't await your own arrival
You've twenty seconds to comply

So let go (you let go)
Jump in
Oh well whatcha waiting for
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

So let go (mm let go)
Just get in
Oh it's so amazing here
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown (x2)

'cause there's beauty in the break down
So amazing here
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

ps. Frou Frou separated few years ago but their music still lives :)..

However, both Imogen and Guy have their own solo careers.. Guy, as songwriter / produceer, Imogen as, of course, a singer :)..

Thank You

How about getting off of these antibiotics
How about stopping eating when I'm full of
How about them transparent dangling carrots
How about that ever elusive kudo

Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

How about me not blaming you for everything
How about me enjoying the moment for once
How about how good it feels to finally forgive you
How about grieving it all one at a time

Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

The moment I let go of it was
The moment I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it was
The moment I touched down

How about no longer being masochistic
How about remembering your divinity
How about unabashedly bawling your eyes out
How about not equating death with stopping

Thank you India
Thank you providence
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you nothingness
Thank you clarity
Thank you thank you silence

yeah yeah
ahh ohhh
ahhh ho oh
ahhh ho ohhhhhh
yeaahhhh yeahh


The Sun of Love just makes a tiny hole
in your defense walls
and the Ocean of Love
comes within...

Dazzled thoughts

Not to expect anything from anyone.

To live your own life.

When you are continuing your life with wrong persons, and your lives actually "stands", and are not moving anywhere, your lives in the fact are going backwards.

To accept the loneliness.
Not to fight against the mud, against the walls of caterpillar.

To accept the mud, the caterpillar.
The loneliness.

Your own life, however it is.
Yourself, however you are.

Until you do not love yourself,
with that unconditioned love that you dream about,
till that the most supreme love is not the part of your relationship towards your life and life itself,
until you first are not the represent of that love,
till then
that love
in your relationships with other people,
will not enter your life.

So you have to become and be so in love with "Her", or with that the most pure, the most supreme, the most alive life,
so that no personal sacrifice is not and not to be hard...

So the story of unconditioned love
is in fact the story of Self-transformation.

To become a being which that kind of love evokes in others..
it means to be a deserving represent

and there all techniques are becoming only the instrument,
and you become your first pupil....

One needs to be transformed,
in order to live that love that he is foreseeing...

And you are becoming an instrument in the service of that love...

That means, to dedicate your life to that Love...

'before that, you cannot..
before that, you are just a child that is reading the fairy tales..'

And that means..
- how do you expect to "provoke" love in others
if you do not provoke it in you?

Do you expect others are stupid? Or unable to see?

It means that you be such, that you first truly love yourself,

and you will love yourself
if you live the best yourself that you foresee,
that you are able to be,
and if you make an effort into that direction
to admire your way...

And there is no shortcut.
And there is no easy way.

Which means again, that the wisdom is
when you chose actions which will in long term
make you happy.

And so we come here to the pure Intelligence.
and the qualities that are coming from her, such as
will, persistence, devotion...

Or, to the truthfulness of the saying,
that everyone is the creator of its own happiness.

Or, that if you are not happy,
for that you have to thank to yourself only.


how can one escape sadness
when he cannot bare it anymore.............


Procedamus in pace
In nomine Christi, Amen

Cum angelis et pueris,
fideles inveniamur

Attollite portas, principes, vestras
et elevamini, portae aeternales
et introibit rex gloriae
Qius est iste Rex glorie?

Sade, dis-moi,
Sade, donnes-moi

Procedamus in pace
In nomine Christi, Amen

Sade, dis-moi
Qu'est-ce que tu vas chercher?
le Bien par le Mal
la Vertu par le Vice
Sade, dis-moi, Pourquoi l'evangile du Mal?
Quelle est ta religion, Ou sont tes fideles?
Si tu es contre Dieu, tu es contre l'Homme

Sade dit moi pourquoi le sang pour le plaisir ?
Le plaisir sans l'amour.
N'y a t'il plus de sentiment dans le culte de l'homme ?

Sade, es-tu diabolique ou divin?

Sade, dis-moi
Sade, donnes-moi
Sade, dis-moi
Sade, donnes-moi

In nomine Christi, Amen

Let us go forth in peace
In the name of Christ, So be it

We shall find the faithful in the
company of angels and children

Lift up ye heads o ye glorious gates,
and be ye lifted up ye everlasting doors,
and the king of glory shall come in.
Who is the king of glory?

Sade tell me
Sade give me

Shall we proceed in peace
In the name of Christ, Amen

Sade tell me
what is it that you seek?
The rightness of wrong
The virtue of vice
Sade tell me why the Gospel of evil ?
What is your religion? Where are your faithful?
If you are against God, you are against man

Sade tell me why blood for pleasure?
Pleasure without love?
Is there no longer any feeling in man's Faith?

Sade are you diabolical or divine?

Sade tell me
Sade give me
Sade tell me
Sade give me

In the name of Christ, Amen

The Darkness

I love the dark.

In dark
some other senses but sight
are coming into place...

The Sea

It looks like
everyone of us
is carrying a little of the sea inside..

You know,
the tears are

Zoran Đinđić

I loved you very much.
Rest in peace, the one and only Serbian Premier.

photo by Sanja B.

Let go...

When life hits you with its heavy hammer
just across your head and your heart

When you think there is no exit
but the holly peace of death

When you want to stop breathing
for every breath is just the pain

Let go...
Accept defeat and loss and misery..
Drown in sorrow and vanity and despair

Let go..
Stop pedaling..

Let tears roll over your face
do not stop them
do not make them stronger

Let go...
There is nothing outer
that will ever make you happy....................

despair by =Sinapsa on deviantART


It is Time

It is time to become beautiful
as a butterfly
from the caterpillar
or a lotus flower
from the mud...

It is time to become
the best one can be

to make this world
more graceful.

The time is Now.

The Spring of this Existance
is waiting for our flourishing...


Not only to be a Lover

but as well

a door to the Unknown...


It is so good to dream

as long as we clearly know

the difference between

the dream


the reality...


I want to be bounded

with boundless Love.........


You and me in this moment
Light and darkness.

Touch me...

Angels and Demons

Are we all
just defeated Angels?...

And this is what Albanians did with our churches on Kosovo

Kosovo, Serbia: Church set in flames by muslim Albanians 2004

unfortunately, this was just an example....

my soul is crying....

my soul is crying for Kosovo...Kosovo is Serbian and allways will be...... whoever has time can take a look at this website www.kosovo.net/default5.html the Serbian Art and Cultural heritage on the teritory of Kosovo.. Kosovo, where the Serbian country was born many many centuries ago.. where the Serbian Kings were crowned and lived ..............

Now USA wil say it is not Serbia?? For the sake of NATO biggest military base on the world?? The same USA that is fighting for oil in Iraq and killing hundreds of thousands of innocent people??
They took the advantage of the Albanian dream of Big Albania and used it for their own purposes...

But my dear friends, Kosovo, where my father was born as well, is Serbia and allways will be ...................


Tired of dreams
tired of past
tired of future
that does not exist

I chose to live
in this very moment
because that is all that is
because I have no other option
because this moment is
the only reality.



Is the history of Humanity
the history of violence

started within ourselves?

How to stop the war within our souls
and to come into real inner peace?

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