LAVINIA

Lavinia's Personal Hexagram:

51: Shock

Wednesday, July 15th, 2009

General Meaning: One hears thunder unexpectedly! First comes fear, then a sharpening of one's vision. Recall a close brush with danger — a falling branch, an automobile accident barely avoided, an escape from a potentially violent confrontation. Such incidents arouse every nerve fiber in your body in a brief wave of terror, but soon, once the danger has passed, give way to a heightened awareness of the world. The same process also occurs with other types of shock — the loss of a job, the sudden departure of a loved one, business failure and so on.

The lasting impact of a major shock can either be stimulating or debilitating, depending upon one's strength of character. The critical factor is the ability to shake off fear, thereby transforming anxiety into a laser-sharp perception of the world around you.

When overtaken by crisis, the wise search their hearts for inner strengths in order to face their life with courage. This often means daring to take an unexpected path — to bounce back quickly and self-confidently after failures, to have faith in the eternal when confronted with death.

We tend to think of shock only in the context of unpleasant events. We can also be jarred, however, by the sudden release of tension that comes with unexpected joy or success. To keep your bearings in the aftershock of either trauma or victory, it is essential that your inner compass be aligned with 'true north', that magnetic force which guides you toward fulfillment of both your deepest desire, and your highest destiny.

ps. to separate for good from your beloved one, after 12 years.. is really a shock.. ......

endless love
unconditional love
beyond jealousy
beyond possessiveness
open and clear
pure as a heart of the child
accepting
innocent
truthful
.....................
the only real

With your Moon in Leo, you may have experienced a bit of glamour around your mother, or other primary caregiver. Life may have been a party whenever she entered the room. On the other hand, a Leo Moon can indicate a mother who never grew up. The shadow side of this Mother Moon tends toward arrogance and melodrama. It may be that you had to vie for attention and love. Whatever the case, early childhood experiences made you crave big life and big love, giving you a glimpse of the ways you might tap into your own inner resource and unleash the Lion within.

Throughout your childhood, you may have learned that the way to get love was by expressing yourself -- whether that meant grabbing the spotlight or joyfully sharing your ideas with others. This rich and fiery emotional inheritance provides you with the tools to encourage others to be whoever they are and open up to their own dramatic sides. You are incredibly affectionate and can be loyal to a fault. You want everyone to feel special and to create relationships full of romance and play. Your own instincts for flair help the people in your life tap into greater joy and celebrate the artistry inherent in all walks of life.

Early childhood patterns may have created a need within you to experience relationships as exciting and dramatic. This can lead you to balk at commitment once the initial thrill is gone. "Falling in love" is often more appealing than being in a relationship. A sense of boredom may lead you to outrageous behaviors. Playing the field is one thing, but there's another word for that these days: player. Sometimes, your need to feel special manifests as the attention-seeker who steals everyone's thunder and makes others feel unimportant except as admirers or attendants to the queen/king. Be mindful of behavior that one-ups what someone is expressing to you. "Oh, you're afraid of spiders? Well, I am so afraid of them, that once I crashed my car into a building because one was crawling on my leg." That sort of thing.

The other side of this golden coin is your inherent generosity and great big Lion heart. The key to your art of loving is emitting the radiance of the Sun, which comes naturally through you when you allow for others to be special in their own ways. Giving yourself time for artistic exploration and play is essential to feeding your Moon. Everyone in your life will be much happier if you are being creative. When you try to hide your light under a bushel, you end up resenting the people you're trying to protect from your fire. When you demand that others bow down to your glory, you miss out on the joy of giving someone else the chance to shine. Trust that by giving in to your creative side and cultivating your natural flair, others will see the real you and appreciate your enthusiasm for life.

With the Moon in Aries, your mother or other primary caregiver may have been a powerful protector in your childhood. Expressing anger may have caused much family turmoil, but withholding it was just as dangerous as letting it out. You may have felt you had to compete for affection. Whether through friendly encouragement or outright intimidation, these experiences taught you to be your own person and not to let anything get in the way of what you want. You may have taken the brunt of some pretty harsh expectations of achievement and success.

In this way, you inherited a tricky mixture to balance in your relationships. You do know what you want, and aren't afraid to ask for it. Although this can look selfish to others, it is because of your natural sensitivity to others and a strong intuition that you are able to make such demands from life. When you tap into the core knowledge that you have a unique gift to bring the world, and are the master of your own destiny, you let go of having to be right and enforce your rules on others. Just like a seed bursting forth from fertile soil in the spring, the mighty power that directs you also connects you to others. Its power is the essence of life itself.

You may have an unconscious expectation for friends, partners and other loved ones to know what they want and take it -- or to let you do it for them. Being unassertive may be seen as weakness or deficiency, and a lack of action frustrates the Aries Moon. Other times, you may be looking for clues about who you are in the other person -- attaching to another then becomes a matter of self-preservation; they are a part of your identity. If they fail, you feel like a failure for choosing them. You do need someone who is as strong as you are, so they can meet the challenges of life with vitality and brilliance. Just remember that strength comes in many different flavors, sizes and colors.

The key to your art of loving is to accept your own wild nature and work with it consciously. When you embrace your inner strength, you can learn to dance with your instincts and still have respectful relationships. Cultivating thoughtful awareness of your emotions often means finding personally fulfilling outlets for your power. When you satisfy that inner-wilderness, you create more space for the people you love to be who they are and relieve the pressure for your relationships to be the sole source of fire.

Love
has to be Lived.

Otherwise
it is just an
empty space
filled with
nothingness...