Now

the time is flowing away..
slow minutes are passing slowly
taken away by the wind
sometimes cold
sometimes caressing
the horrifying past is vanishing forever
it is gone
like the skin of the snake
that is changing it
the new down
is born within us

i am staying here
waiting
hoping
loving
letting it go
doing nothing
not a single movement to tell you
change this stream
this direction
this outcome

not even a letter of a prayer
to cross my lips
emptiness
silence
solitude....

After You

There,
You cannot leave me any-more
That I fall apart every time
When You take away the half of my heart with you
Half of my brain
One hand
Every time a little more
Every time a little longer
Every time a little deeper
A little more painful
A little more poisoning
There,
I left
First
Forever
Closed the door
I
Disabled for the whole life
Without all the things I joyfully gave you
In all those years in which I have
Loved you but
Even for that I am no more
Sure...

Realities have been mixed
One of them went non-returnably
Flowed away with your pain
To the dark centre of the Earth
If I could reverse
I'd do all differently
If I knew what I know now
But now
Now is only late
Too late

I-Ching

Lavinia's Personal Hexagram:

51: Shock

Wednesday, July 15th, 2009

General Meaning: One hears thunder unexpectedly! First comes fear, then a sharpening of one's vision. Recall a close brush with danger — a falling branch, an automobile accident barely avoided, an escape from a potentially violent confrontation. Such incidents arouse every nerve fiber in your body in a brief wave of terror, but soon, once the danger has passed, give way to a heightened awareness of the world. The same process also occurs with other types of shock — the loss of a job, the sudden departure of a loved one, business failure and so on.

The lasting impact of a major shock can either be stimulating or debilitating, depending upon one's strength of character. The critical factor is the ability to shake off fear, thereby transforming anxiety into a laser-sharp perception of the world around you.

When overtaken by crisis, the wise search their hearts for inner strengths in order to face their life with courage. This often means daring to take an unexpected path — to bounce back quickly and self-confidently after failures, to have faith in the eternal when confronted with death.

We tend to think of shock only in the context of unpleasant events. We can also be jarred, however, by the sudden release of tension that comes with unexpected joy or success. To keep your bearings in the aftershock of either trauma or victory, it is essential that your inner compass be aligned with 'true north', that magnetic force which guides you toward fulfillment of both your deepest desire, and your highest destiny.

ps. to separate for good from your beloved one, after 12 years.. is really a shock.. ......

We (inside thoughts)

we are passing each other

while our shadows tangle..

Oro - Jelena Tomasevic - Eurovision 2008

I love you, Serbia...

TEKST Evrovizija 2008 Finale Srbija Izvođač: Jelena Tomašević feat. Bora Dugić Naslov pesme: Oro Tekstopisac: Dejan Ivanović Kompozitor: Željko Joksimović Ko li miluje milo moje Ko li usne te snene budi Ne zaboravi ime moje Kada krene da da te ljubi Klasje moje ne spavaj Njega ljubi mene uspavaj Ne lomi mi led vodu nema Ne soli mi ranu suza nema Ko li zaigra oro moje Neka ne igra za nas dvoje Klasje, mene uspavaj Nuna nej, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu nej Nuna nej, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu nej Na Vidovdan probudi me Da ga opet pogledam Nuna nej, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu nej Nuna nej, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu nej Na Vidovdan Probudi me Da ga opet pogledam Na Vidovdan Probudi me Još jednom, da ga pogledam

LYRICS Eurovision Song Contest 2008 Final Serbia Performer: Jelena Tomašević feat. Bora Dugić Song title: Oro Song writer(s): Dejan Ivanović Song composer(s): Željko Joksimović Whom is caressing My dearest one, Whom is awaking those dreamy lips Do not forget my name When it reaches for.. for kissing you Wheat Of mine, do not sleep Kiss him, Put me to sleep Do not break my ice It has no water Do not put solt on my wound There are no tears Whoever would start dancing my ‘oro’ (traditional dance) May they not dance for the two of us My wheat, put me to sleep Nuna ney, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu ney Nuna ney, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu ney (lalluby) On a St. Vitus’s day Wake me up To look at him again… Nuna ney, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu ney Nuna ney, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu ney On a St. Vitus’s day Wake me up To look at him again… On a St. Vitus’s day Wake me up Once again, to look at him…

...translated by Lavinia

* Vidovdan (St. Vitus's Day) 28th June > http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vidovdan

Zoran Đinđić

I loved you very much.
Rest in peace, the one and only Serbian Premier.



photo by Sanja B.

Angels and Demons

Are we all
just defeated Angels?...

And this is what Albanians did with our churches on Kosovo

Kosovo, Serbia: Church set in flames by muslim Albanians 2004



unfortunately, this was just an example....

my soul is crying....

my soul is crying for Kosovo...Kosovo is Serbian and allways will be...... whoever has time can take a look at this website www.kosovo.net/default5.html the Serbian Art and Cultural heritage on the teritory of Kosovo.. Kosovo, where the Serbian country was born many many centuries ago.. where the Serbian Kings were crowned and lived ..............

Now USA wil say it is not Serbia?? For the sake of NATO biggest military base on the world?? The same USA that is fighting for oil in Iraq and killing hundreds of thousands of innocent people??
They took the advantage of the Albanian dream of Big Albania and used it for their own purposes...

But my dear friends, Kosovo, where my father was born as well, is Serbia and allways will be ...................

Zoran Đinđić - the Man I loved...

If Serbia stops now...

I will never forget you..

Hope to meet you once in that future where you wanted to lead us...

R.I.P.

Drifting

In Memoriam II

Sometimes I am whispering your name... When nobody can hear me, when I am hidden in my rooms, in cold walls around which there is no one for miles...
It is not that I miss you... I ran away from the moments without you, holding you as before.. Then, I aloud myself just to breath nearby you without words, and my body is healing from the alien's touchings, kisses of a strangers in whom I was devotedly looking for you... although I knew in advance - you were in none of them.
I wish then to disintegrate, that my ash spills till nonrecognition, to stay in that breathing forever... Close to you...
I ask myself why I had to meet you.. Why you had to leave me.. Why I do not know how to walk alone, my steps are stumbling, my knees are scratched from fallings and repeated up-standings, from tryings to stand up, vainly..
You wont give me your hand, wont ask me how I am, just one forgive me and your conscious is peaceful? Is there.. Is there a justice for those who went by wrong path by their own will, knowingly what they are doing.. It is bitter the taste of your skin under my fingers.. I do not blame you for anything..
Just I want more of you.. Just I ve seen no dawn since that night in which we parted, when I hadn't even a presentment of its determination.. How many months I needed to realize that? Maybe I still did not.. My darling.. My love.. My... I was not telling you that at the beginning.. Since I was, like I ve cursed us.. Of course you are not mine, but still you are.. My love.. Will anyone of us three succeed to be happy again? Me, I don't think so...

written on 18th of May 2005.