After You

There,
You cannot leave me any-more
That I fall apart every time
When You take away the half of my heart with you
Half of my brain
One hand
Every time a little more
Every time a little longer
Every time a little deeper
A little more painful
A little more poisoning
There,
I left
First
Forever
Closed the door
I
Disabled for the whole life
Without all the things I joyfully gave you
In all those years in which I have
Loved you but
Even for that I am no more
Sure...

Realities have been mixed
One of them went non-returnably
Flowed away with your pain
To the dark centre of the Earth
If I could reverse
I'd do all differently
If I knew what I know now
But now
Now is only late
Too late

I-Ching

Lavinia's Personal Hexagram:

51: Shock

Wednesday, July 15th, 2009

General Meaning: One hears thunder unexpectedly! First comes fear, then a sharpening of one's vision. Recall a close brush with danger — a falling branch, an automobile accident barely avoided, an escape from a potentially violent confrontation. Such incidents arouse every nerve fiber in your body in a brief wave of terror, but soon, once the danger has passed, give way to a heightened awareness of the world. The same process also occurs with other types of shock — the loss of a job, the sudden departure of a loved one, business failure and so on.

The lasting impact of a major shock can either be stimulating or debilitating, depending upon one's strength of character. The critical factor is the ability to shake off fear, thereby transforming anxiety into a laser-sharp perception of the world around you.

When overtaken by crisis, the wise search their hearts for inner strengths in order to face their life with courage. This often means daring to take an unexpected path — to bounce back quickly and self-confidently after failures, to have faith in the eternal when confronted with death.

We tend to think of shock only in the context of unpleasant events. We can also be jarred, however, by the sudden release of tension that comes with unexpected joy or success. To keep your bearings in the aftershock of either trauma or victory, it is essential that your inner compass be aligned with 'true north', that magnetic force which guides you toward fulfillment of both your deepest desire, and your highest destiny.

ps. to separate for good from your beloved one, after 12 years.. is really a shock.. ......

Freedom

Let go of Everything

and

feel the taste of

Freedom

John

I'm thinking of you even when I do not
Longing for you while you are so far away
I know you will be back, this is all so good for you
I know

You have new friends new home new life new experiences
You learn so much every day I know that all

But I miss you
is it that I really shouldn't?

This past month was like six months for me,
Next five may be like five years, I guess?

I would love to prepare myself for you
For our encounter there in the future
I'd love to be the best I can by then
Perhaps this is all good for me too?

But how I'd love to feel your lips once again
Would love to be embraced by you once again
Would love to laugh with you as before once again

But I ... I will let go..?

They say what love is great that was easy

But should I try to embrace this moment
and this very moment only..
when the pain that I feel caused by our separation
is just too strong and in a way unhand-able for me...

love
Lavi

Frou Frou: Let Go

..

Drink up baby down
Mmm are you in or out
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you

Excuse me
Too busy
Writing your tragedy
These mishaps
You bubble wrap
When you've no idea what you're like...


So let go (let go)
Jump in
Oh well whatcha waiting for
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

So let go (so let go)
Just get in
Oh it's so amazing here
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown


It gains the more you give
and it rises with the fall
So hand me that remote
Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow

Such boundless pleasure
We've no time for later now
You can't await your own arrival
You've twenty seconds to comply

So let go (you let go)
Jump in
Oh well whatcha waiting for
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

So let go (mm let go)
Just get in
Oh it's so amazing here
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown (x2)

'cause there's beauty in the break down
Breakdown
So amazing here
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

ps. Frou Frou separated few years ago but their music still lives :)..

However, both Imogen and Guy have their own solo careers.. Guy, as songwriter / produceer, Imogen as, of course, a singer :)..

Let go...

When life hits you with its heavy hammer
just across your head and your heart

When you think there is no exit
but the holly peace of death

When you want to stop breathing
for every breath is just the pain

Let go...
Accept defeat and loss and misery..
Drown in sorrow and vanity and despair

Let go..
Stop pedaling..

Relax
Let tears roll over your face
do not stop them
do not make them stronger

Let go...
There is nothing outer
that will ever make you happy....................






despair by =Sinapsa on deviantART

I'll be Alright

Go.
Spend your life away from me.
I'll be alright.
Perhaps I will think
about un-happened days
forever lost in this
stream of Life.
Perhaps I will grief
for losing the closeness
we shared in our best days.
But I wont miss this.
To be near you
and not to be able
to hear your heart beats.
To be near you
and not to know
your most gentle and secret thoughts.
To be near you
and not to be able to hug you
or kiss you or even laugh with you.
To be near you
and not to be able to tell you
what I dream of
To be near you
and not to share the same vision
nor even
its broken parts.
I'll be al right.
I'll renew my self respect
I ve almost lost
in the past years.
I'll go freely to the world
with the wide open eyes
and believe I am child again.
I'll share my joy for being alive
with the neighbours, strangers, cats
and trees that I am in love with
without fear of to be
misunderstood.
I'll spread my hands and touch the sky
as I'm seeing it the very first time.
I'll hug the Life itself
and allow myself
to be Happy again.