LAVINIA

Song

2011-11-18T16:36:00.011Z

small movement on the branch
and the bird which sung all night long
went away

for the long dark hours
i've listened to her voice
full of softness and yearning
full of grace and purity
full of life and longing
full of fullness
and wondered

if my soul were a bird
would it sing so beautifully
as the little bird on the tree near my window
or would it be silent
silent as the sun in the morning

or would my song be always the same
from one tone woven
perhaps joyful
perhaps
sad..

i didn't know..
but when the bird left
my soul bowed to hers
with thankfulness..

Love

2011-07-15T12:45:00.001+01:00

In deep love it happens that the two persons are not two.
Something between the two has come into being,
and they have just become two poles.
Something is flowing between the two.
When this flow is there, you will feel blissful.
If love gives bliss, it gives bliss only because of this:
that two persons, just for a single moment, lose their egos.
The "other" is lost, and oneness comes into being just for a single moment.
If it happens, it is ecstatic, it is blissful, you have entered paradise.
Just a single moment, and it can be transforming.

≈OSHO≈

How can people turn the human phenomenon of falling in love into a meditation?

2010-07-02T12:00:00.002+01:00

How can people turn the human phenomenon of falling in love into a meditation?

IT IS THE EASIEST WAY. In human life, love is the closest phenomenon to meditation. The moment you fall in love with someone, what actually happens? What transpires between those two who have fallen in love with each other? They drop their egos -- at least for each other. They drop their hypocrisies, their masks. They want to be together, almost one soul within two bodies. That's the desire of love.

And this is a beautiful moment to change it into a meditation. Just nobody has ever told them. In fact, just the opposite has been told to them: that love is against meditation, so people who are falling in love can never become meditators.

THE SAME PEOPLE who make celibacy spiritual make love unspiritual, something dirty, condemned. But to me things are totally different. Love helps you to relax, which is part of meditation. Love helps you to be joyous, which is part of meditation. Love helps you, for a few moments at least, to be silent, which is the essential part of meditation. And finally, making love, if you attain to an orgasmic experience, gives you a glimpse of what meditation is, but it is millions of times more than this.

So to me, love is a basic experience which can help you to become meditators. The old religions have been preventing it, and they have been preventing it for a certain reason. If people can transform their love into meditation, then the priests and the churches and the synagogues are no more needed, then people are totally free. No spiritual leadership is needed. And there are millions of priests around the world, like parasites on humanity. And naturally they will give you wrong ideas, against love, and they will give you ideas for meditation, but because you don't have the basic experience....

LOVE IS JUST LIKE when you enter into a swimming pool, step by step you are going into deeper water. Then the floor of the swimming pool is divided in two parts, one for those who cannot swim, so the water is up to your neck, and then the second part for those who can swim.

But those who want to learn swimming have to learn in the first part, which is not for swimmers. They have to learn it there. Once they have learned, then slowly they will gather courage and enter into deeper water, because for a swimmer it does not matter how deep the water is; the swimmer is always on the surface. The water may be a hundred feet deep, five hundred feet deep, or five miles deep, it makes no difference to the swimmer. It makes a difference only to the non-swimmer. Beyond five feet, everything is death. But the swimming pool is one -- shallow, deep -- it is one. And the boundary line is only a line until you learn to swim.

To me, love and meditation are just like that. Love is the shallow space in a swimming pool, for those who cannot meditate. But that is the place to learn meditation. And it is the same pool, it is the same water, it is the same kind of phenomenon. You are just unable to go deeper because you have been made afraid even to enter into it. The shallow part has been condemned, and you have been told to jump into the deeper part without knowing how to swim.

So they disturbed your love life by condemnation and they disturbed your meditative life by sheer strategy: because you don't know swimming, you cannot go so deep. And you don't have any experience of silence, peace, sheer joy, a little bit of ecstasy, something orgasmic -- these will give you the hints how meditation is not a myth. You have tasted it a little bit. It is the same energy field, just you have to go deeper into it.

WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENS when one couple moves into the realm of orgasmic experience? What actually happens? Every point has to be understood. Time stops. For a moment the pendulum does not move, and that single moment seems to be almost eternity. The two persons are no more two -- for a moment. They have melted into each other. There is no thought in the mind, for a moment. It is all empty and silent, and these are the things which have to be deepened in meditation.

And once you have tasted them, you will be surprised that it does not depend on the other person. Something happens within you. Something happens within the other person. But it is not dependent. If you can sit silently, if you can manage, by watching your thoughts, to bring a gap, a stop, you will suddenly see time has stopped again. And now it is in your hands, not in the hands of biology. You can keep this time stopped as long as you want. And once you know the secret key....

The key is: no thoughts, no ego, no time -- you just are.

That's why I have never been against love. I have been much condemned for it, naturally, because I was cutting the very roots of the business of all the religions.

EVERY RELIGION IS against me. Their profession depends on condemning love and praising meditation. They know you cannot attain to meditation, and they know now your love is condemned, it is a sin. You will never experience any orgasmic phenomenon, so meditation will remain just a philosophy, and your life will remain loveless, angry, full of rage, ready to explode at any excuse. Because where will your energy go?

It could have become peace, silence, joy, blissfulness. You did not allow it to become that. That repressed energy turns into poison. That's why everybody is irritable, annoyed, worried, tense. The simple reason is that they have lost the natural source of relaxation.

No animal looks irritated, annoyed, angry, because they don't understand the language the priests speak.

They have never heard that celibacy is spiritual. Of course they cannot attain to meditation, but they are far better than those human beings who could have attained meditative heights, but have lost even the simple biological experience of orgasm.

THOSE ARE SIMPLY indications of your possibilities, potentialities. And it is easier to experiment with something natural in the beginning and then to try something which is supernatural, which belongs to higher nature.

And once you know how to be silent, how to be thoughtless, how to be in a state of no time, no mind, you experience such orgasmic joy, which has nothing to do with sex, it has such purity and such innocence.

A man who has attained to that purity and innocence has no need of sex, it is no longer a psychological problem for him. But there is no prohibition either. He can enjoy sex too, and he will enjoy it more than anybody else, because his orgasm will immediately become meditative.

Having experienced the meditative orgasm -- such a greater phenomenon -- his sexual orgasm will immediately trigger the bigger orgasm. He can play with sex. There is no harm in it. There is no need, but there is no prohibition either. It is up to him.

THE MEDITATIVE ORGASM absorbs your sexual energy, because you don't have any other energy. Your whole energy is sexual energy, and that vast explosion of joy simply absorbs all your energy. Hence, you need not become a pervert, you need not make an effort to remain celibate. It is just your choice.

If you want to play old games once in a while, it is perfectly good. In fact, perhaps it should be a part of every enlightened man's life to have sex once in a while, because that will change the attitude of the whole world about sex.

Without that, it is very difficult to change. Then they can see that even an enlightened person can enjoy sex. There is nothing sin-like in it. And it will join the enlightened man and unenlightened man in a bridge. At least on one point, both experience the same thing....

Love is a natural kind of meditation. And meditation is a supernatural kind of love.

What is Meditation?

2010-06-15T20:21:00.005+01:00

Krishnamurti with Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jiddu_Krishnamurti

The Whole World Is Sad Because Of Marriage

2010-06-04T17:26:00.001+01:00

Osho

There is an interesting research on the fidelity of marriage published in The New York Times, ' The most consistent data on infidelity come from the General Social Survey, sponsored by the National Science Foundation and based at the University of Chicago, which has used a national representative sample to track the opinions and social behaviors of Americans since 1972. The survey data show that in any given year, about 10 percent of married people — 12 percent of men and 7 percent of women — say they have had sex outside their marriage.'

The researchers also see big changes in relatively new marriages. About 20 percent of men and 15 percent of women under 35 say they have ever been unfaithful, up from about 15 and 12 percent respectively.

But I think this is a very low percentage compared to the actual cheating game played by husbands and wives. Both the partners go on cheating and want that the other should not know about it. Can't blame them. The way marriage is structured, is stifling and everyone wants to breathe fresh air once in a while. Not a big crime for sure!

Osho hammers the outdated institution of marriage which has an inherent scope for infidelity.

Osho asks a pertinent question in his book The Messiah Vol #8

" What goes wrong between husbands and wives, even after a love marriage? It is not love, and everybody has accepted it as if he knows what love is. It is pure lust. Soon you are fed up with each other. Biology has tricked you for reproduction and soon there is nothing new -- the same face, the same geography, the same topography. How many times have you explored it?

The whole world is sad because of marriage, and the world still remains unaware of the cause.

" When you live together, the husband comes home late; there is no need, no necessity for the wife to inquire where he has been, why he's late. He has his own space, he's a free individual. Two free individuals are living together and nobody encroaches on each others' spaces. If the wife comes late, there is no need to ask "Where have you been?" Who are you? -- she has her own space, her own freedom.

But this is happening every day, in every home. Over small matters they are fighting, but deep down the question is that they are not ready to allow the other to have his own space.

"Likings are different. Your husband may like something, you may not like it. That does not mean that it is the beginning of a fight, that because you are husband and wife, your likings should also be the same. And all these questions... every husband returning home goes on in his mind, "What is she going to ask? How am I going to answer?" And the woman knows what she's going to ask and what he's going to answer, and all those answers are fake, fictitious. He's cheating her.

"What kind of love is this that is always suspicious, always afraid of jealousies? If the wife sees you with some other woman -- just laughing, talking -- that's enough to destroy your whole night. If the husband sees the wife with another man and she seems to be more joyous, more happy, this is enough to create a turmoil.

" People are unaware that they don't know what love is. Love never suspects, love is never jealous. Love never interferes in the other's freedom. Love never imposes on the other. Love gives freedom, and the freedom is possible only if there is space in your togetherness."

And to end this write up on a playful note here is an Osho joke:

Paddy's wife Maureen has had it. She goes to see her attorney, Abraham Babblebrain, and tells him she wants a divorce.

"Very well, Mrs O'Grady," says Babblebrain, "what are your grounds?
You have to have a reason for getting a divorce."

"Reason?" says Maureen. "Really? What sort of reason?"

"Well," says Babblebrain patiently, "for example, one reason would be if your husband does not give you enough money."

"Pah," snorts Maureen, "give me money? I give him money."

"Okay," says Babblebrain, "what about cruelty then? Does he beat you?"

"Pah," snorts Maureen again, "beat me? I beat him."

"Ah," says the lawyer, "so what about infidelity? Is he faithful to you in love?"

"That's it!" cries Maureen. "That's how we get him. I know for a fact that he is not the father of our third child."

From the book : Zen: The Diamond Thunderbolt # 1/courtesy Osho International Foundation/www.osho.com/library

Zoran Đinđić - intervju

2010-05-12T13:08:00.006+01:00

Zauvek ću Te voleti, Gospodine!

Chillout

2010-04-13T17:06:00.000+01:00

Noam Chomsky About Serbia, Kosovo, Yugoslavia and NATO War

2010-04-11T22:35:00.005+01:00

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Noam_Chomsky

Kosovo: Can You Imagine?

2010-04-11T22:17:00.005+01:00

Kosovo | Can you Imagine?, Косово | Можете ли да замислите? from Владимир Чановић on Vimeo.

http://www.kosovo-film.com/

Kosovo: Can You Imagine? is a documentary film by Canadian filmmaker Boris Malagurski, about the Serbs that live in Kosovo and the lack of human rights that they have today, in the 21st century.

Most of the Kosovo Serbs have been ethnically cleansed by the Albanians who make up the majority of Kosovo.

Kosovo has been under UN administration since 1999 when NATO bombed Serbia for 78 days to halt a crackdown on ethnic Albanian separatism in its province of Kosovo.

In the years following the war, thousands of Serbs were expelled from their homes, kidnapped and killed. Their houses, cultural and religious sites were burned and destroyed.

Kosovo for the Serbs is what Jerusalem is for the Jewish people. It is the cradle of their statehood, culture and religion. Most of the important Serbian Christian Orthodox monasteries are in Kosovo.

Today, Serbs still have a deep spiritual and traditional connection to Kosovo, a land which is being cleansed of everything Serbian.

Most of the Kosovo Serbs are internally displaced, some of them live in small containter camps, in ghettos, all this in the heart of Europe in the 21st century.

We follow the stories of several Serbs who have fell victim to a nationalist and irredentist ideology that has a goal of creating a pure Albanian state of "Kosova" ("Kosovo" in Albanian)

Serbs in Kosovo have no basic human rights. You will be shocked to learn which atrocities they have to face each day.

Lock of light

2010-04-08T21:41:00.006+01:00

You went there where we cannot follow you..
left behind this stellar dust
which has descended onto our arms softly
like your palms
once

silver threads of your hair wrapped between the worlds
just to tell us that you are here somewhere
that you will always be here
even when you will not be

your voice
and your hands
delicate and weak
in the end
took with them all our misunderstandings
All of our inabilities
to provide you fully
what you only needed

that someone accepts and loves you
just like that
as you were,

girl asleep in a step
towards the world of eternal Goodness
Justice
Love .....................

and again...

2010-03-09T11:11:00.010Z

While your love
penetrates me like
lava which rises
within this volcanic crater
shuddering
such as avalanches that is
incontinently falling out
down those glacial slopes
scattering itself
and stopping only upon
soft and supple valleys
My love whispers in your ear
words gentle like moonlight
which fell on blue branches of trees
on the silver glint of the surface of the sea
on dried red roses that I forever
stored in the chambers of my heart
for you
for me
for that dawn about which
you said
even as a child you only dreamed of
and now you have found me
you nestle your lips on mine
interlace yours with my heat
anchored your commitment into the blue ports of my existence
permeated me to the tiniest pulses of my awareness
and would it be right for me to stay quiet
that i do not sing that melody
of grace
that irreversibly
into our history is
nailing ...

TO LIVE WITHOUT JEALOUSY

2010-03-02T21:40:00.005Z

I found it on the net and liked it :)..

IS IT POSSIBLE TO LIVE WITHOUT JEALOUSY UNLESS ONE IS ENLIGHTENED?

- It is possible. If you are enlightened then the question of jealousy does not arise at all; then it is impossible to have jealousy. Before enlightenment it is possible to live without jealousy. You just have to look into the causes of jealousy.

What makes you jealous? -- possessiveness. Jealousy itself is not the root. You love a woman, you love a man; you want to possess the man or the woman just out of fear that perhaps tomorrow he may move with somebody else. The fear of tomorrow destroys your today, and it is a vicious circle. If every day is destroyed because of the fear of tomorrow, sooner or later the man is going to look for some other woman because you are just a pain in the neck. And when he starts looking for another woman or starts moving with another woman, you think your jealousy has proved right. In fact it is your jealousy that has created the whole thing.

So the first thing to remember is: Don't be bothered about tomorrows; today is enough. Somebody loves you... let this be a day of joy, a day of celebration. Be so totally in love today that your totality and your love will be enough for the man not to move away from you. Your jealousy will move him away; only your love can keep him with you. His jealousy will move you away; his love can keep you with him.

Don't think of tomorrow. The moment you think of tomorrow your living today remains half-hearted. Just live today, and leave tomorrow, it will take its own course. And remember one thing, that if today has been such a beauty of experience, such a blessing -- out of today is born tomorrow, so why be worried about it?
If some day the man you have loved, the woman you have loved finds somebody else -- it is simply human to be happy, but your woman is happy with somebody else -- it does not make any difference whether she is happy with you or happy with somebody else, she is happy. And if you love her so much how can you destroy her happiness?

A real love will always be happy if the partner feels joyous with somebody else. In this situation -- when a woman is with somebody else, and you are still happy and you are still grateful to the woman and you still tell the woman, "You have absolute freedom; just be totally happy, that is my happiness. With whom you are happy is insignificant, what is significant is your happiness" -- my feeling is that she cannot remain away from you for long, she will be back. Who can leave such a man or such a woman?

Your jealousy destroys everything.
Your possessiveness destroys everything.

Before enlightenment you have to understand that what you are gaining out of jealousy you are burning in the fire: the more you become jealous and angry and hateful, the more you are throwing the other person far away from you. It is simple arithmetic that it is not going to help; you are destroying the same thing that you want to preserve.
It is simply idiotic -- it is German!

Just try to understand a simple fact that human beings are human beings. Everybody gets bored with the same person once in a while. Be factual; don't live in fictions. Everybody gets fed up with the same person once in a while. That does not mean that his love has stopped; it simply means a little change is needed. It is good for his health, it is good for your health. You both need a little holiday from each other. Why not do it consciously, "We are feeling stuck. What about having a one-week holiday? I love you, you love me; that is so certain that there is no fear."

My own experience is that after one day's holiday you will fall in love with each other on a higher and deeper level, because now you will see how much you love each other: you cannot even see the sadness that comes naturally by living together. Don't possess each other. Keep the freedom intact so that you don't interfere in each other's private world and you respect the dignity of the other person.

Once this is felt, once in a while you may go on separate holidays, come back again and there will be no need to be worried. You will be surprised that when your woman comes back to you after living with some other man for seven days, and you come back to your woman after living with some other woman for seven days, you both have learned some new things. You can have another honeymoon again. You are new and fresh, and you have learned new tricks. And it is always good to have fresh experiences, enrichment.
It is not that you need enlightenment and only then jealousy will disappear; you only need human understanding, intelligence, and jealousy will disappear.

So don't wait for enlightenment! I know many sannyasins are waiting for enlightenment, and meanwhile being as much jealous as possible, because after enlightenment you cannot!

Osho,
Socrates Poisoned Again After 25 Centuries
Chapter #21

L.o.v.e

2010-02-19T11:34:00.004Z

I love your words about love.
They enter my inner vastness
and fill it with a gentle breeze
that brings spring
into the garden of my soul

I love a smile on your lips.
It calms down the storms
that wave in the absence
of the sense of life
and puts everything in its own place

I love your sweet embrace.
It closes the hole for the unknown
fears and anxieties
All of which stay outside the circle
of safe
which you create for me.

That Moment

2010-02-12T07:50:00.006Z

When you wish me that strong
that it puts all your internal
structure to fire
and from it flame melt
all those steel pillars
of your defenses
And then you touch me
And fold towards my face
Towards my eyes
Towards my lips
In the moment of touch
of your lips red as blood
you stream through me like
a lightning that is dividing
a high tree on two
You become a blade
that cuts me up where
I am the most vulnerable
From me fly out all those
birds of fears and wanderings
They go to search some for them
more friendly areas
I feel
how from tip to toes
of this endless being
dread me this feeling of sweetness
this wine below the skin
this scream in the mid night
this madness
of
our
Love...

You and Me

2010-01-21T13:35:00.005Z

Overcome that, my love ..
I know that it is difficult
I know it looks scary
I know, you'd rather not,
If you do not have to..

Overcome that, love.
For two of us in the truth
for freedom in our hands
vulnerability of dewdrop
on curved mountain grass
under the first rays of the sun ..

Overcome that, my love ..
And then help me
that we go together through the gates of hell
and exit to the other side as
free beings
that nothing
and noone
in any of the worlds
can not apart..

I Love You

2010-01-14T13:53:00.001Z

I love you this morning
until the sun shyly runs
its rays through the cracks of clouds
and is opening the locks of fog
which is folded around the trees and people
around our sleeping beings
in dreams intertwined

I love you this dawn
in which I confessed to you my
deepest soul shiver
whose string under your fingers
sing pleasantly mildly and gently
so
that sometimes my body hurts me from pleasure

I love you
your boyish tenderness
your mysterious smile
sent to me
your unhidden joy
and love in your eyes
love in hands by which you are hugging me
thus
like never
you will not let me go...

My Love

2010-01-07T10:17:00.006Z

Will I whisper these words
to you
as you did
to me
that night
with the shiniest smile
I have ever seen

Will I tell you how
my heart is burning for you
like a thousand Suns
were inside one room

Will I give you all that I am
as a free gift just with
one red ribbon
around my heart

Will I overpower the fear
of jumping into unknown
tonight
when I see you...

...

2009-12-28T16:25:00.005Z

how many songs about love
yet
none is enough to say
what i feel about you

when i am near you
the stars are falling from your eyes
so that i can make a wish each time
a wish
which is at once fulfilled

when you embrace me
i feel how our bodies are merging
from tip to toes
and beyond,
beyond..

closed eyes.
silence.
breath.

...

2009-12-24T14:39:00.004Z

your voice
a sound
and suddenly
the universe
is opening
inside
of me

how
why
who cares

swim
in the heart
of the ocean

feeling
not thinking
at all

I Love

2009-12-14T14:06:00.001Z

I love you, a soul of mine ..
I love your laughter, and tenderness of your hands
I like your movement and your unconcealed longing
your warmth
your infatuation in life
your selflessness
your infinite mercy ..

I love, your fight with your self
that one in which good always wins
like that from that fighting of yours in you
history of the whole world depends on
and thou shalt, by the goodness of yours
save the world ..

I love, and so be it
Can I at all
stop these currents
those shivering that permeate the entire me
when I remember, when I think only
how I slept by you
in your embrace
impressed by your hands
into your beautiful body

In Love

2009-12-08T09:39:00.017Z

Only a drop of silence
Gentle ray of light
Mild breeze on the skin
Your lips on mine...

Only a moment of sparkle
A wave of young grass
Sound of the wings
Your sweet caress...

Only a perfect night
Sun, which is off the west
The city that sleeps in the distance
Two birds in one nest...

May I say, about these feelings
That you have carefully awake
Thousands of dreams which became the truth
Stars that shine above the mountain lake...

Morning

2009-10-13T10:00:00.001+01:00

there is no me.
there is no you.
that early last-year snow
has covered all our
future traces.
your hands are shaking
spilling up
small words
which are bouncing from the low sky
hitting really really
deep
we are hugged by
autumn wind and
yellow leaves
it is nice only in the dawn
while birds are sleeping

by a touch
of a little mouse that would
eagle want-to-become
one day
who knows
you are awakening only sadness
wasting it over
endless fields
of my fertility
of course that it will grow
if one love could
become proud in order
love to become
why wouldn't now
decompose
all these atoms of fractals
all these light years
games that we played
why not
who is going to say
that different would be better
we do not know about ourselves or others
nothing
and it seems to us just sometimes
that we have found some golden wire and followed it
and then we are wondering
where from, suddenly, silver frost
and graves
by the road.................

To John

2009-09-23T12:59:00.016+01:00

if this morning
for the last time sew for you
shoes of Dreams
with which you'll silently hug
endless fogs of disappearing
my shadow will follow you
to protect you if necessary
and to make you smile if
ever grief fly over
your beautiful face

it is not regret
what I say to you now
it is not desire
which torment me in the long night hours
which I am counting within the grooves of consciousness
it is not the memory
on your lips
and your touch

it is only
one butterfly flew out of the darkness of the larvae
exempt from the staples and bonds which
linked him too long
to an invisible shackles of his
forgotting-ness of his
true self

these are just sounds
of the melody which my heart sings
for the first time in my life
thankfully and wounded
at the same time

it is only anxiety
that I will love you long long time
even when I forget
on which side you're gone
and when I will be able to find you
only if
I seek for you inside of myself

O. 04

2009-09-18T12:53:00.008+01:00

peace is filling my hands
every single cell of my
weightless body
endless lobbies of my
invisible spreadings
lips
soft beacuse of
touches of your
etheric kisses
gifts that you are sending to me
in your thoughts
in your dreams
in your
rippled attempts
to comprehend
these wings that are carrying me
through the dark blue starry storms
I am wishing to you
and I wish you
told without voice
tailoring of the model by which you could
find me when I am not there
love blue and red
that is running down the aorta's with
every beat
of the heart
your sighs that are echoing
across this sky
I hear you.
and I breath peacfully, totally peacfully
I am receiving you as the ocean is receiving
the river with all its memories
I will degrade you only in order to
recreate you again
in that what you are yearning for
and that moment is not far
although the eons can pass by, but
who still cares about the time
in this instant that so gently is chaining us
into infinity...

My name in Egyptian

2009-09-16T07:28:00.001+01:00

Lavinia (pronounced as Lafin)

Amaldi (pronounced as Amald)

O. 03

2009-09-09T12:35:00.000+01:00

I am kissing you.
with my invisible lips wrapped around your dreams
your shiverings in the dawn
that only I can feel
I am carressing your eyelids with kisses small and unreal like
a snowflake on the palm
I am blotting the smell of your skin
childlike gentle
nurtured
manlike

I open my soul
I am opening the box of my forgotten hopes
spilled over the carpet by which
you are comming

I feel how you glide
into my body
how your energy is
fulfilling me completely
with no resistance
the power of gravity
layed once again
its role of ebb and tide
there is no rescue there
it simply is,
like that

I am opening the palms
and from them are flying out all these
omens
that you dared
to wish to make
yours
dangerous games
we both love
I do not speak
I am just silent
here and now
beside you
and your reflection in
me.........

O. 02

2009-09-01T18:07:00.000+01:00

I still feel
how my skin
is spilling under your fingers
while is giving itself to you
thirsty of the rain that soaks
the valley broken
under the rays of the
high summer sun

I still hear
the sweetness of your words
by whom you are caressing me
in the early morning while touching
my dreamy hands
looking in them for your nectar

I still shimmer
somewhere inside
awaiting for your coming
and for that peaceful merging with you
full of storm

O.

2009-08-30T07:52:00.000+01:00

Kiss me.
Stamp your lips into mine
long
just like you were kissing me while
the stars were falling upon us
and the sea was breaking
upon our feet

Hold me tight.
By your hand accross my
waist
pull me towards you and forever
copy the lines of my body
into your scaggy
breathing

Love me.
As in that night in which
with you tears
unwillingly spilled on the warm
footpath of destiny
you wrote forever your name into
atriums of my heart.

..

2009-08-06T19:13:00.004+01:00

Your Question: how to go through divorce

Aug 6, 2009

Your Spread

Situation

Self

Challenges/ Opportunities

Your Interpretations

Self: The Hierophant

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
There is a part of you that harbors a deep understanding of how things work.

The card in the Self position reveals aspects of how you perceive yourself right now.

The Hierophant card implies someone who has exceptional knowledge. Every community includes one or two people who have achieved a measure of Wisdom. This card points to you as someone with inner knowledge above and beyond schooling, who may even be able to contact the spirit world on behalf of others.

In ancient times shamans were healers and astrologers, as well as specialists in the alchemy of metallurgy and medicine. Nowadays the Hierophant represents those who have specialized knowledge in any chosen field. She or he speaks wisely from true and direct experience, and serves in a leadership role.

GENERAL MEANING
Traditionally known as the Hierophant, this card refers to a Master and the learning of practical lessons from the study of Natural Law. This energy of this card points to some agent or resource that can reveal the secrets of life, the cycles of the moon and tides, the links between human beings and the heavens.

Because monasteries were the only places a person could learn to read and write in the middle ages, a Hierophant was one to whom a student would petition for entry. He was the one to set the curriculum for the neophyte's course of study.

Often pictured with the right hand raised in blessing, the Hierophant is linked with the ancient lineage of Melchezidek, initiator of the Hebrew priestly tradition, the one who passes on the teachings. All shamans of any tradition draw upon this archetype.

MEANING of POSITION
The card in the Self position reveals aspects of how you perceive yourself right now.

The Self position represents your personal identity in the Now -- the only real point of power. It's not about you in an objective sense, but rather a reflection of how you perceive yourself. It points to an aspect of your self-image, outside of how others might see you.

Consider the meaning of the card that lands here in light of your inner experience, your personal perspective about yourself and the issues you bring to this reading. Who are you? What kind of attitude or energies are affecting you right now? What do you want? It's not always easy to know yourself. Clarity about values and roles is essential for skillful behavior. Values evolve, but don't be too attached to roles -- they can change.

Your attitude is of primary importance here because, more than anything, it supports a capacity for happiness, success and love. How are you contending with fears that arise? What aspect of yourself is in need of development here? Is there any attitude that may be in need of change?

The way you perceive yourself may prove to be accurate or inadequate as the reading unfolds. You may want to take a second look at this position at the end of the spread.

Situation: Three of Cups

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
It is time to take note of a trend toward cooperation and harmony among those around you.

The card that lands in the Situation position refers to social or circumstantial factors which could be affecting your life at this time.

When the Three of Cups is in this position, you have the opportunity to see people overcome their differences, reuniting in support of their mutual best interests. Not only is this a wonderful sight to behold, it's also worthy of encouragement and nurturing.

The environment becomes sweeter as people begin to appreciate each other and mutual admiration prevails. The most effective style of interaction is where everybody gets his or her needs met and receives plenty of acknowledgment. It's encouraging to see this trend emerge in your immediate environment.

GENERAL MEANING
The Three of this suit is often entitled Consent, or simply Yes. This card resonates with a spirit of agreement, mutual support, encouragement and teamwork.

Often pictured as three women celebrating their connectedness in a dance with lifted cups, it could also be called "sisterhood," a real mutual admiration society. It points to all the benefits of harmonious relationship.

MEANING of POSITION
The card that lands in the Situation position refers to social or circumstantial factors which could be affecting your life at this time.

The Situation position provides a general context for your question -- the set and setting, the politics, whatever is going on around you that might be impacting the situation or issue you are consulting the Tarot about. This card could apply to a specific drama or dilemma that you are now confronted with.

Consider this card in light of the issues, people, and forces shaping your environment, your current circumstances. This position also refers to that which is true from the start -- i.e. the hand you were dealt. Consider the set of influences that surround you and affect your personal life. Take a look at how you have been wandering down your chosen path. Our experience is naturally affected by external factors and cycles, the ups and downs of the times. This card can offer clues as to skillful adjustments you might make.

Challenges/ Opportunities: Prince of Disks

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Do your homework. Gain a thorough and deep understanding of your situation and devise a workable plan to see it through.

The card that lands in the Challenges/Opportunities position refers to ways that you can turn obstacles into stepping stones.

With the Knight of Coins (in some decks, The Prince) in this position, you are being asked to go to the roots of things. So, start from the beginning and gain some experience to match your intellectual grasp of the situation. Temper whatever power you possess with patience and sensitivity to detail.

It would be wise to steep yourself in the traditions of your field or clan, so you can tap the spirit and ideas of your predecessors as well as their knowledge. In this way you will not stray far from the truth, the substantial reality which supports your vision, and your greater goal. Too many people have a big dream and move immediately into action with no research, game plan or developed skills. Take care of these factors so that your ventures can be successful from the beginning.

GENERAL MEANING
This card is usually called the Knight, but in some modern decks appears as the Prince. Traditionally, this card in this suit pictures an overseer of fertility and growth. His period of ascendancy is during the quiet years between conflicts, when everybody can collaborate in raising the collective standard of living. His horse is usually huge and thickset, more suitable to pulling a plow than riding swiftly into battle. His temperament is easygoing and relaxed, he's moving at the rate of the flow, because he knows that you can't hurry time.

Seeing the bigger picture, like a farmer planning for the future, he doesn't allow momentary fads or fancies to distract him, and he doesn't take seriously those who do. One can feel his stability and dedication -- he is totally responsible and even somewhat predictable when it comes to his projects. He is earthy and gentle, as simple and deep as the soil he tills and the flowers he loves.

MEANING of POSITION
The card that lands in the Challenges/Opportunities position refers to ways that you can turn obstacles into stepping stones.

The Challenges/Opportunities position helps you get the best out of your situation. It reflects the cutting edge in the situation, the learning curve whereby you can turn adversity into accomplishment -- using creativity and a positive attitude.

This card can point to recurring themes in the challenges you have faced in your life -- and to opportunities that may yet present themselves. Can you think of any patterns which are returning to affect you now? If so, try to recall how you have reacted in the past. Perhaps you can see new potentials, while noticing the hidden pitfalls too. Can you imagine a different way of responding to the situation this time around?

The wisdom of this card can help you turn surprises into strengths, blind spots into windows of opportunity. Bring creativity and flexibility to the way you go about your way in the world. Your expanding capacity will become an asset and source of inspiration to all.

...

2009-08-05T20:09:00.001+01:00

Healing a Broken Heart

There's no question that breakups can be painful, and that it's difficult to trust and love again. But there are ways to get past the pain. Here is some of Dr. Phil's advice for healing the heartbreak.

In time, it is absolutely vital to put the pain behind you and move forward with your life and love. Otherwise, you are giving away your power to the people who hurt you.

Sometimes the relationship you need to rescue is the one with yourself. Moving past a breakup is about you, not your ex.

Don't start thinking about being friends right away — if ever. You have to be your own friend first.

Grief is a process to go through, not a destination in which to wallow. In a process, you keep putting one foot in front of the other, and each little step is part of your healing.

Define your real intentions. Are you trying to move past the breakup, or are you hoping to get back with your ex? You won't move on until you've accepted that the relationship is over.

Be careful about the language you use. When you use catastrophic terms like "nightmare," "terrible," and "horrible," you're bound to spend time dwelling on the negative. Focus on what you can do.

Sometimes you can't get over being hurt until you know you've been heard. Give yourself permission to express your anger and sadness.

Don't embarrass yourself or put yourself in a situation where you'll look back and feel humiliated. Driving past your ex's house, making dozens of phone calls or e-mailing non-stop is no way to let go of the past or come out with your head high.

Learn to trust again. Whenever you get involved in a relationship, you know there's a risk. Don't let a bad experience keep you from living your life to the fullest. You can go through life suspicious, or loving and laughing.

taken from www.drphil.com

Moving on after Divorce

2009-08-05T17:53:00.006+01:00

Concentrate on what you can control
Create a list of choices
Do a reality check
Act on your plan for your new life

Moving on after divorce can be very difficult for many people. You have suffered major loss and have gone through the grieving process.
You are ready to move on
Firstly you do not have to rebuild the life you had previously. You now have the choice to create a new life, with new activities, friends and direction. The first step is to determine what you have control over and what you do not. Your divorce besides giving you freedom also creates legal obligations and so you need to accept those limitations. There may be choices you have made during the divorce process that also limit your control e.g. choosing to remain near the kids.
Concentrate on what you do have control over

Brainstorm to create a list of choices. Brainstorming means you do not stop any thoughts no matter how silly they seem. Instead just pour everything out onto paper
Review your thoughts
Start prioritizing them.
Research them and get yourself down to a few choices
Take a break for a few days
Review them with a fresh eye after a few days
Create an action plan. An action plan should include what you have to do and when you are going to do it
Discuss this with those whose advice you trust
Now you should be ready to act on this

This process can be used to think about your career or your desired relationships among other choice. Take your time. This is not the time to be impulsive. Bouncing your ideas off people you trust gives your ideas a reality test.

Moving on after a divorce can launch you in a totally new and unexpected direction, full of life and excitement. Have the courage to pursue it to its fullest.

taken from www.newlifeafterdivorce.com

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2009-08-05T17:00:00.006+01:00

Rebuilding after Divorce

Divorce is not easy. In fact the majority of the time it is extremely painful. It can take a long time to recover from the damage of divorce. When a divorce occurs it is like a death in the family. So many emotions can rise to the surface. For example: anger, frustration, fear, sorrow, anguish, bitterness, hatred, and regret are just a few of the emotions that come up during and after a divorce. The person being divorced starts questioning their value as a person and as a mate. They start thinking and saying "If only I had done this..." or "I should have done this ..." or "I am not lovable" or "I'll never be happy" or "I'll always be alone".

Divorce can destroy self-esteem. Depression can sneak into the mind without knowing what is happening. The parties involved in divorce become full of guilt. They begin to question their sanity.

Understand that all of the feelings and emotions that surface are normal. Accept them instead of denying that they exist. Work through each emotion. You are not a bad person for thinking or feeling a certain way. You are just human.

Divorce is never easy for the people involved. It can have long-term affects on any new relationships. Divorce can be a learning experience that makes you stronger and healthier emotionally. It all depends on your attitude and how you act after a divorce. Anger, sadness, depression blame, and frightened about the future are common reactions to divorce. Feelings of insecurity, betrayal, low self-esteem and disconnection can linger long after a divorce. You could go through life blaming other's for your unhappiness or you could choose to live and learn from this chapter in your life and create a new beginning. The choice is yours.

Here are some suggestions for people in the process of divorce and for those already divorced:

1. Give yourself permission to feel your feelings. Deal with the feelings of anger and sadness. You have a right to your own feelings. Let them out. Write about the, talk about the, scream and cry about them. Release your feelings. Take a long bath or shower and then stay in your robe all day and just be with your feelings. You have to feel to heal.

2. Understand that it takes a lot of time to recover from divorce. Healing does not happen overnight. Don't let friends or family rush you through the process. Go about your healing in your own way and at your own pace. Don't feel guilty about mourning your loss.

3. Read as much self-help material that you can. Read or listen to the same self-help book at least 6 times during a 30 day period before starting a new book. It takes that much repetition before you can actually digest and learn from the information.

4. Treat yourself often to long walks in the park, massages, movies, eating out, reading a novel, window shopping, and anything else that will make you feel pampered for an hour or so. Pamper and nurture yourself as much as possible. Do some things that you put off doing while you were married. Start taking care of yourself and your needs.

5. Seek outside help from your minister or from a counselor. Reach out to others. Let others help you through your mourning process. Talk to people that can relate and empathize.

6. Be aware of how you think and feel when you are stressed. Try to anticipate how you want to react and then do the opposite. Example: If you usually talk a lot stop and try to listen instead, if you withdraw, stop and start a conversation. It takes time to develop new behaviors. Be persistent. Stop blaming yourself or others for your unhappiness. Take responsibility for your feelings.

How can you regain a positive attitude after divorce? Try the following: Focus on the positive. Look ahead and picture a happier you. Take up new hobbies and start concentrating on happy events and create a better future through your thoughts, words and deeds. See our what you think and speak article and Letting Go of a Past Relationship and Learning to be Happy

Recommended Reading:
Lifeline Divorce Recovery Program. A Powerful Recovery Program Before, During Or After Divorce, Separation Or Loss Of Any Long Term Love Relationship. Also Children In The Debris Of Divorce .The Mighty Adult, and Alcoholism
Avoid The 10 Biggest Divorce Mistakes. Find Out How To Avoid Making Common Costly Mistakes During Divorce And Save Thousands Of Dollars.

1000 Questions For Couples. What You Absolutely Must Know About Your Relationship - Test Your Compatibility And Grow Deeper In Love

Bring Back A Lost Love! Bring Back The Love Of Your Life, No Matter How Hopeless Your Situation Appears. Ends Loneliness, Ensures Happiness!

taken from www.positive-way.com

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2009-08-04T11:26:00.012+01:00



	Your Question: n.f.	Aug 4, 2009

Your Spread

Situation

Self

Challenges/ Opportunities

Spread Information:
The full Celtic Cross reading is a terrific bargain for a multi-faceted, in-depth look at your life and prospects.

The Celtic Cross Spread is a bonafide emblem of Tarot. It is generally regarded as a standard "consultation" spread in the Tarot reader trade, which is attested to by the number of variations of it which are to be found in the pages of contemporary Tarot manuals. The Celtic Cross spread can give you valuable insight into several areas of your life, and how those parts interact within you.

Possessing eleven positions with occasional "extras" at the end, the Celtic Cross offers enough positions to represent relatively complex situations. Within the wheel-shaped part of the spread is a horizontal axis which represents the flow of outer events from recent past through the present to the near future.

The other central axis arises out of one's personal history, through the present moment, to focus on one's Mission or Higher Power. The self and the issues of the moment are at the center of the spread.

The column to the right of the Wheel is called the Staff, which can also be thought of as a ladder. The ideas and advice in this part lift one from the plane of dilemma to a higher plane of resolution. Don't make the mistake of viewing the Past cards as irrelevant to the present or future!

Your Interpretations

Self: Five of Cups

POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Past patterns that once confused you can be overcome; take action to change them.

The card in the Self position reveals aspects of how you perceive yourself right now.

When the Five of Cups is in this position, you are assessing the mixed messages you received in the past about relationships, an emotional legacy of highs and lows which you could be inclined to repeat. Every family creates an emotional climate that ultimately shapes the character and style of each child.

Early confusion about whether you were loved or wanted colors how you react to and interpret people in your present life. The Five of Cups suggests that you may be agonizing over a pattern from the "bad old days" which is arising in your present life. Don't let yourself simply sink into feeling miserable. Get up and try to make it right again.

GENERAL MEANING
The Five of this suit traditionally portrays the mess that is left after an emotional upheaval, such as a tantrum or fit of rage. Consequences run the gamut from a hangover and lost wages, to abuse and ruined relationships.

This card is also sometimes called Inheritance, suggesting the cross-generational legacy of such tragedies. Violent family patterns magnified to a much larger scale can become war.

MEANING of POSITION
The card in the Self position reveals aspects of how you perceive yourself right now.

The Self position represents your personal identity in the Now -- the only real point of power. It's not about you in an objective sense, but rather a reflection of how you perceive yourself. It points to an aspect of your self-image, outside of how others might see you.

Consider the meaning of the card that lands here in light of your inner experience, your personal perspective about yourself and the issues you bring to this reading. Who are you? What kind of attitude or energies are affecting you right now? What do you want? It's not always easy to know yourself. Clarity about values and roles is essential for skillful behavior. Values evolve, but don't be too attached to roles -- they can change.

Your attitude is of primary importance here because, more than anything, it supports a capacity for happiness, success and love. How are you contending with fears that arise? What aspect of yourself is in need of development here? Is there any attitude that may be in need of change?

The way you perceive yourself may prove to be accurate or inadequate as the reading unfolds. You may want to take a second look at this position at the end of the spread.

Situation: Ten of Swords

POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Since you are unable to triumph over forces larger than yourself, practice non-resistance to the energies around you.

The card that lands in the Situation position refers to social or circumstantial factors which could be affecting your life at this time.

When the Ten of Swords is in this position, the anticipated goal appears to have been aborted. Normalcy may have been disrupted and replaced with a certain amount of chaos. Despite appearances, all is not lost for you or your loved ones. It is, however, a shakeup of the prevailing order. You may be in no position to repair the situation because forces larger than you could be dominant right now.

If it seems like you have no control over the outcome, why spend energy trying? Perhaps all you can do is wait things out. Rely on the good sense nature gave you and save any remaining energy for a new start later on. Cut your losses and detach yourself from circumstances. If you do so, you might not have to go down with the ship.

GENERAL MEANING
The Ten of this suit represents finality, the end of something. As is easy to grasp from the picture in many decks, there is no hope for revival here. A limit has been reached, a line has been crossed and there is no turning back. In some situations this may be felt as a tragic loss, but it often brings with it a paradoxical sense of release and closure. The waiting and wondering are over. There is no more ambiguity. You can rightly let go and move on, as there is no more progress to be made here.

Emotionally and psychologically, this card appears when one is exhausted and used up, burnt out by the effort of caring and responding and trying to make a difference. When a person feels this way, they have reached burnout and can no longer be held responsible for anything, and therefore can be forgiven for caving in or ceding the fight. The simple instructions are: "Go no further along these lines!"

MEANING of POSITION
The card that lands in the Situation position refers to social or circumstantial factors which could be affecting your life at this time.

The Situation position provides a general context for your question -- the set and setting, the politics, whatever is going on around you that might be impacting the situation or issue you are consulting the Tarot about. This card could apply to a specific drama or dilemma that you are now confronted with.

Consider this card in light of the issues, people, and forces shaping your environment, your current circumstances. This position also refers to that which is true from the start -- i.e. the hand you were dealt. Consider the set of influences that surround you and affect your personal life. Take a look at how you have been wandering down your chosen path. Our experience is naturally affected by external factors and cycles, the ups and downs of the times. This card can offer clues as to skillful adjustments you might make.

Challenges/ Opportunities: The Devil

POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Get in touch with your deepest passions and instinct, so they can be channeled to benefit everyone.

The card that lands in the Challenges/Opportunities position refers to ways that you can turn obstacles into stepping stones.

The Devil card in this position challenges you to feel your desire, passion or attraction fully, but to unleash that powerful force only for the greatest good. Be in touch with your vital force, its passionate energy and urges, but don't lose your head.

These powerfully transformative times demand that we learn to handle unpredictable and unimagined experiences with poise. That can't be done if you fall into judgment, unbridled lust or any other form of emotional or physical addiction. If you can participate in this arousing situation without completely losing your composure, you will be of great value to your friends, family and community. You have some powerful energy within you. Let it express, but channel that expression for good.

GENERAL MEANING
What has traditionally been known as the Devil card expresses the realm of the Taboo, the culturally rejected wildness and undigested shadow side that each of us carries in our subconscious. This shadow is actually at the core of our being, which we cannot get rid of and will never succeed in taming. From its earliest versions, which portrayed a vampire-demon, this card evoked the Church-fueled fear that a person could "lose their soul" to wild and passionate forces.

The image which emerged in the mid-1700's gives us a more sophisticated rendition -- that of the "scapegoated Goddess," whose esoteric name is Baphomet. Volcanic reserves of passion and primal desire empower her efforts to overcome the pressure of stereotyped roles and experience true freedom of soul. Tavaglione's highly evolved image (Stella deck) portrays the magical formula for harnessing and transmuting primal and obsessive emotions into transformative energies. As a part of the Gnostic message of Tarot, this fearsome passion and power must be reintegrated into the personality, to fuel the soul's passage from mortal to immortal.

MEANING of POSITION
The card that lands in the Challenges/Opportunities position refers to ways that you can turn obstacles into stepping stones.

The Challenges/Opportunities position helps you get the best out of your situation. It reflects the cutting edge in the situation, the learning curve whereby you can turn adversity into accomplishment -- using creativity and a positive attitude.

This card can point to recurring themes in the challenges you have faced in your life -- and to opportunities that may yet present themselves. Can you think of any patterns which are returning to affect you now? If so, try to recall how you have reacted in the past. Perhaps you can see new potentials, while noticing the hidden pitfalls too. Can you imagine a different way of responding to the situation this time around?

The wisdom of this card can help you turn surprises into strengths, blind spots into windows of opportunity. Bring creativity and flexibility to the way you go about your way in the world. Your expanding capacity will become an asset and source of inspiration to all.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

i am just wondering, can this be any more true...

Always and Only You

2009-07-30T12:32:00.003+01:00

I love you.
I have always loved you.
Even when I didn't know your face
And when I haven't touched your hands
And when your strong embrace
Haven't cut me around my waist
And your gentle kiss
enslaved my lips forever

I love you.
I know your every thought
Every flicker
your dreams and visions
I know your paths
and what is dragging you to them
I know you
better then you know
yourself
perhaps

I love you.
I am dreaming about the moment in which
our paths will cross
There is no place for doubt
that we will stay strangers for always
when we are vibrating in this universe
on the same frequencies
with different attributes
facets of the qualities
accords of notes
of the same melody
our own
unique
and non-repeatable

If you hear me
and I know you do hear me
here I am whispering to you
the most gentle words
with the most passionate sounds I am dew-ing your forehead
I am hugging you with the hands endless as the sea
In my pupils
traces of your ideas
I am following them all
all by one, the most hidden
the most sweet

I love you.
There, just that you know that,
like this, written,
black on white.

Now

2009-07-28T11:17:00.005+01:00

the time is flowing away..
slow minutes are passing slowly
taken away by the wind
sometimes cold
sometimes caressing
the horrifying past is vanishing forever
it is gone
like the skin of the snake
that is changing it
the new down
is born within us

i am staying here
waiting
hoping
loving
letting it go
doing nothing
not a single movement to tell you
change this stream
this direction
this outcome

not even a letter of a prayer
to cross my lips
emptiness
silence
solitude....

After You

2009-07-26T12:43:00.007+01:00

There,
You cannot leave me any-more
That I fall apart every time
When You take away the half of my heart with you
Half of my brain
One hand
Every time a little more
Every time a little longer
Every time a little deeper
A little more painful
A little more poisoning
There,
I left
First
Forever
Closed the door
I
Disabled for the whole life
Without all the things I joyfully gave you
In all those years in which I have
Loved you but
Even for that I am no more
Sure...

Realities have been mixed
One of them went non-returnably
Flowed away with your pain
To the dark centre of the Earth
If I could reverse
I'd do all differently
If I knew what I know now
But now
Now is only late
Too late

About Calmness

2009-07-25T17:31:00.011+01:00

Your Spread

Situation

Self

Challenges/ Opportunities

Your Interpretations

Self: Art

POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
The time is now for self-healing.

The card in the Self position reveals aspects of how you perceive yourself right now.

With Temperance in this position, you are ready to take responsibility for getting well, no matter what it takes. The quest for health could be on a physical, emotional or mental level, or it may have to do with paying off "karmic dues."

The work is to clear up past dysfunction and address entangled emotions. The process will purge the toxic waste of unfinished business that disables you. When you are ready, mix your powerful medicine. This is the right time to start healing yourself.

GENERAL MEANING
What is traditionally known as the Temperance card is a reference to the Soul. Classically female, she is mixing up a blend of subtle energies for the evolution of the personality. One key to interpreting this card can be found in its title, a play on the process of tempering metals in a forge.

Metals must undergo extremes of temperature, folding and pounding, but the end product is infinitely superior to impure ore mined from the earth. In this image, the soul volunteers the ego for a cleansing and healing experience which may turn the personality inside-out, but which brings out the gold hidden within the heart. (This card is entitled "Art" in the Crowley deck.)

Situation: The Hierophant

POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
A teacher who is familiar with esoteric knowledge can steer you to the answers you need.

The card that lands in the Situation position refers to social or circumstantial factors which could be affecting your life at this time.

When the Hierophant appears in this position, you may have access to a mentor or exemplary person through whom important revelations emerge. This individual may be a key to the positive outcome you are seeking.

Look around you to see whom this inspired, highly educated and experienced individual is. When you are in position, you can tap this resource of wisdom.

GENERAL MEANING
Traditionally known as the Hierophant, this card refers to a Master and the learning of practical lessons from the study of Natural Law. This energy of this card points to some agent or resource that can reveal the secrets of life, the cycles of the moon and tides, the links between human beings and the heavens.

Because monasteries were the only places a person could learn to read and write in the middle ages, a Hierophant was one to whom a student would petition for entry. He was the one to set the curriculum for the neophyte's course of study.

Often pictured with the right hand raised in blessing, the Hierophant is linked with the ancient lineage of Melchezidek, initiator of the Hebrew priestly tradition, the one who passes on the teachings. All shamans of any tradition draw upon this archetype.

Challenges/ Opportunities: Queen of Swords

POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Champion your own needs; put some distance between yourself and those who would hamper your progress.

The card that lands in the Challenges/Opportunities position refers to ways that you can turn obstacles into stepping stones.

With the Queen of Swords in this position, improve your ability to balance your needs against the pressures of other people's expectations. To turn this challenge into an opportunity, develop some enthusiasm for spending more time with yourself, making the pivotal decisions in your own life, and living directly with the consequences of your choices.

Become your own best advocate. To help you accomplish this goal, shorten the list of people and circumstances that have the power to distract you or divert your energy. Define your boundaries. State your goals. Start acting on your own behalf.

GENERAL MEANING
Representing the energy of a Queen, this feminine power was traditionally known as a widow, crone or divorcee. In modern times, she can be viewed as a model of self-sufficiency, independence and intelligence. She often has extremely high standards due to her subtle sensitivities, which can be perceived by those around her as being critical or hard to please. Her true motive is to refine the world, to upgrade peoples' understanding -- so that everyone can have the space they need to become fully themselves.

She is not interested in conforming. She is too intelligent to be confined to the role of housewife or nursemaid, although she is perfectly competent in those areas. She chooses her associations (or her solitude), and is seldom caught up in dependent relationships -- at least not for long. Her intelligence is not always the most comfortable to be around, but she can be counted on to see through superficiality and point to the truth of a situation.

Peace & Harmony Celtic Cross

2009-07-20T14:26:00.004+01:00

Your Spread

Spread Information:

Situation

Self

Challenges/ Opportunities

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This reading takes a deep look at your personal or spiritual path. It contains 11 positions (described below) which will provide you a many-faceted overview of all the major aspects of the self-development process. This spread will help you get a profound perspective on how to heal the conflicts of the past and take the next skillful steps along your journey of peace -- for your sake and that of the whole world.

The Peace and Harmony reading covers myriad aspects of your spiritual evolution -- from the influences of your higher self to internal elements of blockage or obstacle. It can be useful for evaluating the path of service you choose to follow, and it will offer you insights and advice to help you on your way.

Attaining inner and outer peace is the ongoing work of a lifetime. All of us have suffered traumas of a physical, emotional or psychological nature. You can use this reading to take a look at a particular aspect of your own inner work. Let the wisdom of this reading encourage you to take good care of yourself for the sake of your peace of mind and peace in the world.

Your Interpretations

Self: Knight of Wands

POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
You appreciate the benefits that come from applying your self-confidence toward the preservation of a peaceful order in your world.

The card in the Self position touches on an aspect of how you perceive yourself right now, including how at peace you are with and within yourself.

The King of Wands in this position shows you projecting a sense of personal power and security worthy of respect and appreciation. This is your time to shine and for your uncommon sense to be recognized. Be careful, though -- this king can be interpreted as autocratic. Strive to be objective and open-minded to avoid overly offending others who may disagree with you.

Remember that everything is cyclical and passes through its own seasons. A sense of serenity felt at the top is no guarantee that a position of influence will last. Stay balanced and use your power wisely to set a good example for people around you.

GENERAL MEANING
This suit, most often called "Wands" and sometimes called "Rods" or "Staves," represents initiative, ambition, drive and desire. This is the suit of enterprise and risk-taking.

Traditionally representing the energy of a dynamic King, this card represents the classic conquering hero. He's a charismatic leader, entrepreneurial and ambitious, always creating new adventures. He does this because he doesn't like to stay home or to have to "mind the store" -- he gets to feeling restless and bored with the predictable. If you need a crusader, or someone to take on a big challenge, he's your man. He needs a big assignment, and would rather lead than follow.

It could be said that he has a bit of an ego, as evidenced in his enjoyment of flattery and praise. Ever a bit the performer, he overachieves in situations where it will be noticed, but in private he wants to be served and adored like the head lion of a pride. A benevolent despot, he makes life wonderful for those he loves, and just the opposite for those who displease him.

MEANING of POSITION
The card in the Self position touches on an aspect of how you perceive yourself right now, including how at peace you are with and within yourself.

The Self position points to an aspect of your inner identity, your basic individuality -- without regard for how others might see you.. In this context, who you are hinges on current attitudes you hold toward yourself, as well as your cultivation of inner peace and harmony in the world.

Consider the meaning of the card that lands here in light of your inner experience, your personal perspective about yourself and the issues you bring to this reading. Who are you? What kind of attitude or energies are affecting you right now? What do you want? It's not always easy to know yourself. Clarity about values and roles is essential for skillful behavior. Values evolve, but don't be too attached to roles -- they can change.

Your attitude is of primary importance here because, more than anything, it supports a capacity for happiness, success and love. How are you contending with fears that arise? What aspect of yourself is in need of development here? Is there any attitude that may be in need of change?

The way you perceive yourself may prove to be accurate or inadequate as the reading unfolds. You may want to take a second look at this position at the end of the spread.

Situation: The Lovers

POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
You are faced with a choice that challenges your ability to trust yourself.

The Situation position refers to the general set of influences that surround you and affect your personal experience of peace. We all have to deal with conflict and are affected by the process.

When the Lovers card appears in this position, you may need to make a choice. You are standing at a fork in the road and only one path may be chosen. It is the destination you are trying to reach that will guide you in choosing which companions are appropriate to your dream. So, get clear about what your goals are. When objectivity is lacking, you may have to use your intuition. You have to look at what is inside of you and consider the future self you need to become in order to fulfill your destiny. Meditating can help to quiet the mind so that your intuition can work.

If you take some time, go within and are honest with yourself, then you will likely discover that peaceful place from which answers arise. However, if you are just fooling around, it could turn out to be costly for your personal and spiritual development.

GENERAL MEANING
Although it has taken on a strictly romantic revision of meaning in some modern decks, traditionally the Lovers card of Tarot reflected the challenges of choosing a partner. At a crossroads, one cannot take both paths. The images on this card in different decks have varied more than most, because we have had so many ways of looking at sex and relationships across cultures and centuries.

Classically, the energy of this card reminded us of the real challenges posed by romantic relationships, with the protagonist often shown in the act of making an either-or choice. To partake of a higher ideal often requires sacrificing the lesser option. The path of pleasure eventually leads to distraction from spiritual growth. The gratification of the personality eventually gives way to a call from spirit as the soul matures.

Modern decks tend to portray the feeling of romantic love with this card, showing Adam and Eve at the gates of Eden when everything was still perfect. This interpretation portrays humanity before the Fall, and can be thought to imply a different sort of choice -- the choice of evolution over perfection, or the choice of personal growth through relationship -- instead of a fantasy where everything falls into place perfectly and is taken care of without effort.

MEANING of POSITION
The Situation position refers to the general set of influences that surround you and affect your personal experience of peace. We all have to deal with conflict and are affected by the process.

The Situation position provides a general context for your question -- the set and setting, the politics, whatever is going on around you that might be impacting the situation or issue you are consulting the Tarot about. This card could apply to a specific drama or dilemma that you are now confronted with.

Consider this card in light of the issues, people, and forces shaping your environment, your current situation.

Consider the set of influences that surround you and affect your personal life. Take a look at how you have been wandering down your chosen path. Our experience is naturally affected by external factors and cycles, the issues and conflicts of the times. This card can offer clues as to skillful adjustments you might make.

Challenges/ Opportunities: Six of Swords

POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Be prepared to change your point of view. Use analytical thinking to see that which you have been overlooking.

The card in the Challenges/Opportunities position reflects how you can use creativity and skill to turn conflicts into harmonious understanding.

The Six of Swords in this position challenges you to examine the technical aspects of your current situation. Logical, rigorous analysis will empower you now, substantially clarifying important issues.

When unseen patterns become visible, you will realize with surprise that they were active all along. You have to first reorganize your mind in order to clearly see factors you usually take for granted. Don't wait for someone else's solution. Reach deep into yourself and confirm that you have what it takes to figure this out. If you study the situation, you will know what to do.

GENERAL MEANING
The Six of this suit has generally been associated with the objectivity of scientific method, employed through the generations to sift fact from superstition, build facts into theories, and theories into Laws which we can trust and use to improve our lives. One early title for this card was The Navigator -- one who has learned enough about the relation between the Earth and the Heavens to be able to set a course across trackless oceans and arrive at a chosen spot on distant shores.

At the time of the first Tarot decks, this skill was considered akin to magic, so few were the individuals who understood the principles involved. So the person who draws this card is being typified as a person with special knowledge, an insight into sophisticated techniques that may be powerful enough to effect a rescue in a dangerous time. Other related titles that are common to this card are The Path (out of danger) and The Way Through.

MEANING of POSITION
The card in the Challenges/Opportunities position reflects how you can use creativity and skill to turn conflicts into harmonious understanding.

The Challenges/Opportunities position helps you get the best out of your situation. it reflects the cutting edge in the situation, the learning curve whereby you can turn adversity into accomplishment -- using creativity and a positive attitude.

This card can point to recurring themes in the challenges you have faced in your life -- and to opportunities that may yet present themselves. Can you think of any patterns which are returning to affect you now? If so, try to recall how you have reacted in the past. Perhaps you can see new potentials, while noticing the hidden pitfalls too. Can you imagine a different way of responding to the situation this time around?

The wisdom of this card can help you turn surprises into strengths, blind spots into windows of opportunity. Bring creativity and flexibility to the way you go about your way in the world. Your expanding capacity wll become an asset and source of inspiration to all.

I-Ching

2009-07-15T14:46:00.006+01:00

Lavinia's Personal Hexagram:

51: Shock

Wednesday, July 15th, 2009

General Meaning: One hears thunder unexpectedly! First comes fear, then a sharpening of one's vision. Recall a close brush with danger — a falling branch, an automobile accident barely avoided, an escape from a potentially violent confrontation. Such incidents arouse every nerve fiber in your body in a brief wave of terror, but soon, once the danger has passed, give way to a heightened awareness of the world. The same process also occurs with other types of shock — the loss of a job, the sudden departure of a loved one, business failure and so on.

The lasting impact of a major shock can either be stimulating or debilitating, depending upon one's strength of character. The critical factor is the ability to shake off fear, thereby transforming anxiety into a laser-sharp perception of the world around you.

When overtaken by crisis, the wise search their hearts for inner strengths in order to face their life with courage. This often means daring to take an unexpected path — to bounce back quickly and self-confidently after failures, to have faith in the eternal when confronted with death.

We tend to think of shock only in the context of unpleasant events. We can also be jarred, however, by the sudden release of tension that comes with unexpected joy or success. To keep your bearings in the aftershock of either trauma or victory, it is essential that your inner compass be aligned with 'true north', that magnetic force which guides you toward fulfillment of both your deepest desire, and your highest destiny.

ps. to separate for good from your beloved one, after 12 years.. is really a shock.. ......

Polyamory

2009-07-14T15:46:00.004+01:00

endless love
unconditional love
beyond jealousy
beyond possessiveness
open and clear
pure as a heart of the child
accepting
innocent
truthful
.....................
the only real

Moon in Leo: Playing by Heart

2009-07-11T16:09:00.005+01:00

With your Moon in Leo, you may have experienced a bit of glamour around your mother, or other primary caregiver. Life may have been a party whenever she entered the room. On the other hand, a Leo Moon can indicate a mother who never grew up. The shadow side of this Mother Moon tends toward arrogance and melodrama. It may be that you had to vie for attention and love. Whatever the case, early childhood experiences made you crave big life and big love, giving you a glimpse of the ways you might tap into your own inner resource and unleash the Lion within.

Throughout your childhood, you may have learned that the way to get love was by expressing yourself -- whether that meant grabbing the spotlight or joyfully sharing your ideas with others. This rich and fiery emotional inheritance provides you with the tools to encourage others to be whoever they are and open up to their own dramatic sides. You are incredibly affectionate and can be loyal to a fault. You want everyone to feel special and to create relationships full of romance and play. Your own instincts for flair help the people in your life tap into greater joy and celebrate the artistry inherent in all walks of life.

Early childhood patterns may have created a need within you to experience relationships as exciting and dramatic. This can lead you to balk at commitment once the initial thrill is gone. "Falling in love" is often more appealing than being in a relationship. A sense of boredom may lead you to outrageous behaviors. Playing the field is one thing, but there's another word for that these days: player. Sometimes, your need to feel special manifests as the attention-seeker who steals everyone's thunder and makes others feel unimportant except as admirers or attendants to the queen/king. Be mindful of behavior that one-ups what someone is expressing to you. "Oh, you're afraid of spiders? Well, I am so afraid of them, that once I crashed my car into a building because one was crawling on my leg." That sort of thing.

The other side of this golden coin is your inherent generosity and great big Lion heart. The key to your art of loving is emitting the radiance of the Sun, which comes naturally through you when you allow for others to be special in their own ways. Giving yourself time for artistic exploration and play is essential to feeding your Moon. Everyone in your life will be much happier if you are being creative. When you try to hide your light under a bushel, you end up resenting the people you're trying to protect from your fire. When you demand that others bow down to your glory, you miss out on the joy of giving someone else the chance to shine. Trust that by giving in to your creative side and cultivating your natural flair, others will see the real you and appreciate your enthusiasm for life.

Moon in Aries: Reclaiming Wilderness

2009-07-11T15:44:00.004+01:00

With the Moon in Aries, your mother or other primary caregiver may have been a powerful protector in your childhood. Expressing anger may have caused much family turmoil, but withholding it was just as dangerous as letting it out. You may have felt you had to compete for affection. Whether through friendly encouragement or outright intimidation, these experiences taught you to be your own person and not to let anything get in the way of what you want. You may have taken the brunt of some pretty harsh expectations of achievement and success.

In this way, you inherited a tricky mixture to balance in your relationships. You do know what you want, and aren't afraid to ask for it. Although this can look selfish to others, it is because of your natural sensitivity to others and a strong intuition that you are able to make such demands from life. When you tap into the core knowledge that you have a unique gift to bring the world, and are the master of your own destiny, you let go of having to be right and enforce your rules on others. Just like a seed bursting forth from fertile soil in the spring, the mighty power that directs you also connects you to others. Its power is the essence of life itself.

You may have an unconscious expectation for friends, partners and other loved ones to know what they want and take it -- or to let you do it for them. Being unassertive may be seen as weakness or deficiency, and a lack of action frustrates the Aries Moon. Other times, you may be looking for clues about who you are in the other person -- attaching to another then becomes a matter of self-preservation; they are a part of your identity. If they fail, you feel like a failure for choosing them. You do need someone who is as strong as you are, so they can meet the challenges of life with vitality and brilliance. Just remember that strength comes in many different flavors, sizes and colors.

The key to your art of loving is to accept your own wild nature and work with it consciously. When you embrace your inner strength, you can learn to dance with your instincts and still have respectful relationships. Cultivating thoughtful awareness of your emotions often means finding personally fulfilling outlets for your power. When you satisfy that inner-wilderness, you create more space for the people you love to be who they are and relieve the pressure for your relationships to be the sole source of fire.

L.o.v.e.

2009-06-23T07:51:00.003+01:00

Love
has to be Lived.

Otherwise
it is just an
empty space
filled with
nothingness...

"But I Have Stopped to Dream...."

2009-05-27T13:43:00.008+01:00

From tonight, I am not looking for you any more..
not even one of you hidden in some of him
or in many
I do not need your embraces
to feel your wish towards me
your sifts to listen
your yearnings to fulfill

From tonight I walk alone
I am walking, straight as a queen
aware of her own mights
which is admiring the beauty of her kingdom
which is serving to it by all her powers
by all her soul escaped from the heaven
and to heaven returned

From tonight the world is shiny drop on the palm
most valuable
mine

Dreamvisions

2009-05-13T19:35:00.015+01:00

Tonight I am setting free the bird
of my wantings
Cached in the chest
By your silence

I am inviting the night to heal me
From your touchings
As it did so many times by now

I will leave into your heritage
My smiles caused
By your movements
In those nights when we, isn't it
loved each other
But to each other we did not belong

I will eternally take from you only the shine of your eyes
That black darkness that was surrounding us
Your fingers on my lips
Your passionate sighs that are echoing
within this dreamvision

You

2009-05-03T10:32:00.004+01:00

grant me your
most secret
moments
i will keep them
carefully and
forever
the same as
these green
traces
of your touchings
on my skin

grant me
your dreams
let me
dream them
through
your eyes
let the ropes
of your
ramblings
cut into
my feet too

grant me
the darkness
of your
sleepless nights
and the light of your
most mysterious
magical mornings
let the star
of your
insights
spills
on me
and
in me

and stay for all that
yours
totally yours
as you are
for different
i wouldn't
be able to
love you

Come to Me

2009-04-29T10:45:00.007+01:00

I would bite tonight
your naked shoulder
I would stab
a sword of tenderness in
the flesh of your hopes
and wishes

I would tear apart
with the kiss
your roamings
and
take you there
where
fulfilled is
all

I would catch tonight
into the net of my
traces
the reflection of your eyes
in the darkness
and

then
totally silently
so that you do not notice in the dream
step aside
towards encounter
with the sunny
hot
day

...

Satellites of the Stone Age: Come to Me
Dessert Sessions

Should I

2009-04-26T15:49:00.011+01:00

Should I write you a poem
while I am thinking of you
while you are walking in my feelings
like in your apartment
in the attic
with the view
on the city lights

Should I tell you
I want you
when
I want you
some short flashing pictures
in front of the eyes
you
and
me
on the living room floor
hugged
united
un-satiationed

Should I tell you
that your hands
are still touching me
like the hot
lava that
expels from the
burning
volcano throat

I see your face
your eyes
your lips
I hear your voice
that tells
you are too beautiful
that tells me
stop
just to
stare into
my eyes

Should I tell you
come
To admit to you
that I am
whispering
that word
like
you could
hear it

Or to remain silent
of this wish
that you
woke up
in me
surprisingly
without question
stormily
and
ripping it out
of
the matrix
of
space
and
time.........

Freedom

2009-04-20T16:04:00.004+01:00

Let go of Everything

and

feel the taste of

Freedom

Fly

2009-04-14T09:50:00.007+01:00

Fly,
my little un-catch-able bird
fly furthest that you are able to
enjoy in every movement of your gentle wings
and
do not look back
I do not expect that anyway
anymore

but you still walk in my thoughts..

Love

2009-04-08T10:00:00.003+01:00

how much more
i have to learn about love

is it that love
does not expect
anything in return

is the love
in giving only

but
what about one way love
is it love then
or just a dream

John

2009-04-07T12:04:00.015+01:00

I'm thinking of you even when I do not
Longing for you while you are so far away
I know you will be back, this is all so good for you
I know

You have new friends new home new life new experiences
You learn so much every day I know that all

But I miss you
is it that I really shouldn't?

This past month was like six months for me,
Next five may be like five years, I guess?

I would love to prepare myself for you
For our encounter there in the future
I'd love to be the best I can by then
Perhaps this is all good for me too?

But how I'd love to feel your lips once again
Would love to be embraced by you once again
Would love to laugh with you as before once again

But I ... I will let go..?

They say what love is great that was easy

But should I try to embrace this moment
and this very moment only..
when the pain that I feel caused by our separation
is just too strong and in a way unhand-able for me...

love
Lavi

...

2009-03-13T11:45:00.014Z

it is so hard to be left. I do not know what time is this that you are leaving me, but it looks as the last one, it looks as it is determined this time, that you are not coming back.
Why is that, I may ask myself for a long time when I stay on my own. How is that I am looking at this situation now and although everything inside me is screaming please stay with me and do not leave me for good, no words can cross my lips, my hands are stopped beside the body, no movement, no tear, nothing I can do looks like will not keep you from going.
It was so long that we were truly happy together, still, hope was surviving somewhere inside for such a long time. Eleven years. And it is over now. I am shocked, as in some slow motion movie that is happening to someone else.
Where is the border of pain that can cut a man or a woman.. I am finding these as a very stretchable line, and the bottom is in suicide I believe. As long as we are alive, it can go deeper and deeper.
What will I do without you in my life. This really scares me. Like I am wearing bricks inside my stomach this whole day.. One may say, I have no rights to complain, wasn't this what I wanted, wasn't this the freedom I was dreaming of all these years.. wasn't I the one who couldn't go through together and had to finally make a step towards the.. whatever it might be...
Yes, it is true.. I do not know why I have to do this, and why we have to part, when we cannot pass thought these door together..
But still, it hurts. It hurts as I cannot describe it.
I am very afraid of this pain, I do not like pain in any way, and maybe it is the reason why I haven't take some steps much earlier..
I don't know..

PS. I guess, that is how I really am.. perhaps I should face with my true face and admit and accept like, yes, it is me, it is my way.......................................

***

2009-02-27T08:57:00.007Z

Peace, Love and Light, to all creatures of all worlds. Truly, there is nothing else that we can do but radiate, shine, alone, by our own strength, His strength, Her strength, of Life itself, in ourselves.

That is alpha and omega, that is the law and fate, that is the only religion, the only teaching.

Above it there is none. All the rest are only dreams, projections, game, nothing real, nothing touchable, like the white foam on top of waves... Everyday life is a wave, sometimes with a foam, sometimes without.

Today it is here, tomorrow it is gone.

Ocean is real, his depth like the undisturbed kingdom rules.

Be like that. You all be like that. Ocean does not ask for anything, it requires anything. it just is.

And therefore, peace love and light in every moment of life, and death.

There is no death.

Truly death does not exist.

Open yourself to that power that is eternal, that runs through you. And let her reshapes you by its own will. Do not resist to her. Do not be afraid. She knows why.

***

All that has ever happened should happen.

Let that go, do not lose any more of your power on matters that have passed. Now - this moment - you can be what you are.

Everything has been resolved, everything has been forgiven, it is over. Now - this moment - your soul can become magnificent, as it was eons before you, and eons after you. Remove your small caterpillars from the path of your own happiness, your own joy, your celebration that has been promised to you, once for all. Free as a bird, from yourself, from others, from your need for others. Open to that power, and it will do everything for you. Do not believe - check it. With the fullness of your heart go into change and observe what will happen. Not a rock will stay on a rock and the light will be born. As many lights before it. This is a truly wonderful world.

You

2009-02-26T09:37:00.006Z

I wish if
the sky could be bluer
to reflect the beauty of your eyes

and if the Sun could blush more
in the sunsets
perhaps it would reflect
the loveliness of your lips...

Soul pain

2009-02-25T13:49:00.004Z

running through me like a warrior
in its heavy boots
looking nowhere
in the midst of the battle

eating the pieces of my strength
leaving me desperate
empty like a vase with no flowers

open windows on empty house
only curtains are shimmering out
blown by the wind power..

where are you
am i alone on this island where u left me
can your kisses travel through this distance
to the sunset of my hope

come to me, my lover boy
i wish our streams both collapse
in the waterfall
of ecstasy
and joy

You and Me

2009-02-11T10:24:00.011Z

You've gone
still - u are so close to me

I receive your empty messages
still - I know you are thinking of me

Walking
with your touchings under my skin
with your closed eyes in front of mine

Time will pass quickly
until our paths meet on the crossroads again

I refuse to think
shall we chose the same highway then or
we will part

Because
I believe

when two souls meet in that holly silence
of fulfillment
as ours did

we will always be in the same universe
as one

photo by kokero

Movement

2009-02-03T11:18:00.003Z

can this be a poem :)?

...

photo(c) by Lavinia Amaldi

Global Warming

2009-01-19T09:28:00.007Z

in my heart in my soul because of you...

ice collected through ages of the past
is melting rapidly..

i am afraid
last rare species of the loneliness and closeness
will
die
soon

if you
continue
to shine
on me

and please...
do persist...

Kiss

2009-01-12T16:30:00.003Z

Kiss me...
Lay your soft lips
upon the undulated shores
of my soul
which is whispering
that is in love with you
and let it last
forever

Kiss me...
Rub your dreams
around my
faint ankles
so my thoughts
could not get away
from this
melting
beautiful moment

Kiss me,
kiss away
all the gloom
collected in the
freckled dawns
of your
disappearances...

We (inside thoughts)

2008-12-11T14:10:00.007Z

we are passing each other

while our shadows tangle..

Drifting

2008-11-27T12:21:00.009Z

falling leaves sing
under the foot of passengers
mild sun rays are crossing the skin of the face
i hear the notes of a faraway land
echoing inside of me
i sense the touch
of a faraway hand

is this me
am i the one
who's shoes were torn apart so many times
from running
running away

is this me
am i the one
who's left asleep in a dream of another being

Spirits

2008-11-26T09:11:00.005Z

They say, I've heard
that after two people are making love
their spirits left tangled
for the next seven years
after their bodies separate..

I do not know how many years they stay gathered
if those two are in love at the same time
but I hope in two years
I will become forever free
from you
inside me..

photo: sadness
by Lavinia

You know?

2008-11-06T09:00:00.007Z

there is no day
that i do not think of you..

sometimes just the smell in the air seems familiar, reminds me of
moments when i was breathing your presence

sometimes it is the touch of the usb rope
that u gave me with all those videos on it

sometimes i look at myself and remember
this red sweater was given to me by you

did i ever tell you i love to wear it
on my naked skin
it feels so good knowing it was once
carried by your hands..

sometimes it is just something you said to me
that i notice it echoes within me

sometimes, it is ur smile in my mind
the fire in your eyes the darkness of ur
beautiful soul..

i hear..
u moved on..
u have another son..
u r happy with her
she is in good relationship
with ur ex wife
and your three kids
it makes u satisfied

is it true?
i have no idea
why i doubt that...

i want to believe u moved away from that cursed place where
we loved each other
as i am fully aware it is the past
that five years of dust
covered diligently

yet,
u are still in my heart
and somehow, sometimes
i know i am still in yours...

Photo: Salvador Dali: Persistence of Memory, 1931.

Eco-Friendly Cars on Air

2008-11-04T07:30:00.009Z

Air Cars: A New Wind for America's Roads?
by Jim Ostroff
Thursday, October 30, 2008

Courtesy of MDI

A new carmaker has a plan for cheap, environmentally friendly cars to be built all over the country.

An air-powered car? It may be available sooner than you think at a price tag that will hardly be a budget buster. The vehicle may not run like a speed racer on back road highways, but developer Zero Pollution Motors is betting consumers will be willing to fork over $20,000 for a vehicle that can motor around all day on nothing but air and a splash of salad oil, alcohol or possibly a pint of gasoline.

The expertise needed to build a compressed air car, or CAV, is not rocket science, either. Years-old, off-the-shelf technology uses compressed air to drive old-fashioned car engine pistons instead of combusting gas or diesel fuel to create a burst of air to do the same thing. Indian carmaker Tata has no qualms about the technology. It has already bought the rights to make the car for the huge Indian market.

The air car can tool along at a top speed of 35 mph for some 60 miles or so on a tank of compressed air, a sufficient distance for 80% of consumers to commute to work and back and complete daily chores.

Courtesy of MDI

On highways, the CAV can cruise at interstate speeds for nearly 800 miles with a small motor that compresses outside air to keep the tank filled. The motor isn't finicky about fuel. It will burn gasoline or diesel as well as biodiesel, ethanol or vegetable oil.

This car leaves the highest-mpg vehicles you can buy right now in the dust. Even if it used only regular gasoline, the air car would average 106 mpg, more than double today's fuel sipping champ, the Toyota Prius. The air tank also can be refilled when it's not in use by being plugged into a wall socket and recharged with electricity as the motor compresses air.

Automakers aren't quite ready yet to gear up huge assembly line operations churning out air cars or set up glitzy dealer showrooms where you can ooh and aah over the color or style. But the vehicles will be built in factories that will make up to 8,000 vehicles a year, likely starting in 2011, and be sold directly to consumers.

There will be plants in nearly every state, based on the number of drivers in the state. California will have as many as 17 air car manufacturing plants, and there'll be around 12 in Florida, eight in New York, four in Georgia, while two in Connecticut will serve that state and Rhode Island.

The technology goes back decades, but is coming together courtesy of two converging forces. First, new laws are likely to be enacted in a few years that will limit carbon dioxide emissions and force automakers to develop ultra-high mileage cars and those that emit minuscule amounts of or no gases linked with global warming. Plug-in electric hybrids will slash these emissions, but they'll be pricey at around $40,000 each and require some changes in infrastructure -- such as widespread recharge stations -- to be practical. Fuel cells that burn hydrogen to produce only water vapor still face daunting technical challenges.

Second, the relatively high cost of gas has expedited the air car's development. Yes, pump prices have plunged since July from record levels, but remain way higher than just a few years ago and continue to take a bite out of disposable income. Refiners will face carbon emission restraints, too, and steeply higher costs will be passed along at the pump.

Tata doesn't plan to produce the cars in the U.S. Instead, it plans to charge $15 million for the rights to the technology, a fully built turnkey auto assembly plant, tools, machinery, training and rights to use trademarks.

The CAV has a big hurdle: proving it can pass federal crash tests. Shiva Vencat, president and CEO of Zero Pollution Motors, says he's not worried. "The requirements can be modeled [on a computer] before anything is built and adjusted to ensure that the cars will pass" the crash tests. Vencat also is a vice president of MDI Inc., a French company that developed the air car.

The inventor of this technology is Mr. Guy Negre, who is the founder and CEO of MDI SA, a company headquartered in Luxembourg with its R and D in Nice, France.
Copyrighted, Kiplinger Washington Editors, Inc.

Can you imagine what this would mean for the planet and the air :)?
I mean, Carbon Zero :))
Would you like to grab one of these?
I SO Would!!
Hope Europe will follow India and America on this one - soon ;)

Polyamory

2008-10-30T19:33:00.000Z

Confession..

2008-10-08T14:17:00.017+01:00

I'm so in love with the World.. I wish to say I love you to every man I meet, to every child, just to embrace him, to every women that walks in the street, to every tree, if I could speek
its language..

I'm so in love with everything I see, I know it sounds crazy but
it is how I feel
In Love with Life, with its extraordinery flow, in love with the Stars,
in Love with the Sun that shines so bright
in love with the Moon
and its magical glow..

I could go on and on, don't know if it has any sense.. and perhaps
this is not a song at all...
for how can I sing
about something
so immence...

A Birth of a Star

2008-10-07T10:31:00.014+01:00

the morning is in birth pain..

through the red hot hole of the sky
it is giving a birth to a day ..

photo by Lavinia
(view tru' my window;)

Everytime

2008-09-18T13:28:00.002+01:00

Britney Spears - Everytime...


Notice me, take my hand 
Why are we strangers when 
Our love is strong 
Why carry on without me 

Everytime I try to fly, I fall 
Without my wings, I feel so small 
I guess I need you, baby 
And everytime I see you in my dreams 
I see your face, it's haunting me 
I guess I need you, baby 

I make believe that you are here 
It's the only way I see clear 
What have I done 
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly, I fall 
Without my wings, I feel so small 
I guess I need you, baby 
And everytime I see you in my dreams 
I see your face, you're haunting me 
I guess I need you, baby 

I may have made it rain 
Please forgive me 
My weakness caused you pain 
And this song's my sorry 

At night I pray 
That soon your face will fade away 

And everytime I try to fly, I fall 
Without my wings, I feel so small 
I guess I need you, baby 
And everytime I see you in my dreams 
I see your face, you're haunting me 
I guess I need you, baby

Perception

2008-09-16T10:04:00.007+01:00

There is No Love Above the Truth

photo by Lavinia.

Lovers

2008-09-09T08:44:00.014+01:00

Do you know that moment when lovers meet after a long separation
when they touch each others hands
and place a small kiss upon the others cheek

How the Sun starts to shine stronger
and the waterfalls to run smoother
and the rainbow appears high on the sky
the Earth stops for a little while
to see how they mirror
into each others eyes
diving deep
to meet ones own soul
somewhere inside

How the butterflies become full of joy
while laying upon the vividest petals
as their hearts are beating faster
as their love is growing stronger
as their desire is burning the ice
of those cold, cold, lonely nights

How everything is there,
just there, beside you
and everything you ever wished for
is simply embracing you

Farewell

2008-09-04T13:17:00.004+01:00

So, we have to say goodbye now?
After those moments of passion
and your sweet embrace
After those nights of longings
and your invisible touch
Is it over..
Closed doors, closed heart,
my hand in the air
empty is it now..

My friend
whom I passionately loved
even I knew
how wrong it is..
wrong was it
I do not know

So many years we flew through this stream
together
we knew
there , somewhere out there
is one heart
is one soul
that loves me
with true and free love
pure as a teardrop of a child

And then we broke the vows we gave to truth
we took a moment out of life
and gave our souls to flame that has burnt us

Silence is all that's left
is it not

God knows how this hurts
and still there is nothing else left
for me to do

but to let you go
from my inner world..

to bury you somewhere deep
where even I will be able to forget you..

I loved you,
was I not

I'll kiss you in my thoughts for one last time,
as a friend whose passed away..

Perhaps we'll see us once again,
shall we not
in some far away land of remembering

.......................................

Tracy..

2008-09-01T15:38:00.003+01:00

be careful of my heart

Lament to freedom

2008-08-28T16:15:00.007+01:00

freedom
Originally uploaded by virginiaz.

But--sing?

Dream, laugh, go lightly, solitary, free,

With eyes that look straight forward--fearless voice!

To cock your beaver just the way you choose,--

For 'yes' or 'no' show fight, or turn a rhyme!--

To work without one thought of gain or fame,

To realize that journey to the moon!

Never to pen a line that has not sprung

Straight from the heart within. Embracing then

Modesty, say to oneself, 'Good my friend,

Be thou content with flowers,--fruit,--nay, leaves,

But pluck them from no garden but thine own!'

And then, if glory come by chance your way,

To pay no tribute unto Caesar, none,

But keep the merit all your own! In short,

Disdaining tendrils of the parasite,

To be content, if neither oak nor elm--

Not to mount high, perchance, but mount alone!

Yearning

2008-07-11T14:34:00.004+01:00

Long time ago someone said to me:
Yearning for love Is love...

But I wonder.. isn't it actually its absence?

fact that i love you means nothing

2008-06-27T19:20:00.006+01:00

if I cannot touch your face
and look deeply into your eyes
travelling through your soul
into depths where no one yet
has come

if I cannot lay my hand
onto yours and hold your fingers a while
feeling the flow that is connecting us
even when we are miles apart
from each other

if I cannot embrace you around your hips
slowly crawling my fingers under your shirt
to feel the destroyable
tenderness of your skin
like before

ps.

...
where is she?

This time

2008-06-14T10:15:00.006+01:00

This time I will only be
Let the centuries flow through the vastness of the soul
Let the worlds collide somewhere else
Let the wars calm down
and the warriors through their weapons away

This time
Only silence will merge with the beats of this heart
only stars will shine outside and within

Oro - Jelena Tomasevic - Eurovision 2008

2008-05-27T22:10:00.024+01:00

I love you, Serbia...

TEKST

Evrovizija 2008 Finale
Srbija

Izvođač: Jelena Tomašević
feat. Bora Dugić
Naslov pesme: Oro
Tekstopisac: Dejan Ivanović
Kompozitor: Željko Joksimović

Ko li miluje
milo moje
Ko li usne te snene budi
Ne zaboravi ime moje
Kada krene da
da te ljubi

Klasje
moje ne spavaj
Njega ljubi
mene uspavaj

Ne lomi mi led
vodu nema
Ne soli mi ranu
suza nema
Ko li zaigra
oro moje
Neka ne igra za nas dvoje
Klasje, mene uspavaj

Nuna nej, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu nej
Nuna nej, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu nej
Na Vidovdan
probudi me
Da ga opet pogledam

Nuna nej, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu nej
Nuna nej, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu nej

Na Vidovdan
Probudi me
Da ga opet pogledam

Na Vidovdan
Probudi me

Još jednom, da ga pogledam

LYRICS

Eurovision Song Contest 2008 Final
Serbia

Performer: Jelena Tomašević
feat. Bora Dugić
Song title: Oro
Song writer(s): Dejan Ivanović
Song composer(s): Željko Joksimović

Whom is caressing
My dearest one,
Whom is awaking those dreamy lips
Do not forget my name
When it reaches for..
for kissing you

Wheat
Of mine, do not sleep
Kiss him,
Put me to sleep

Do not break my ice
It has no water
Do not put solt on my wound
There are no tears
Whoever would start dancing
my ‘oro’ (traditional dance)
May they not dance for the two of us
My wheat, put me to sleep

Nuna ney, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu ney
Nuna ney, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu ney (lalluby)
On a St. Vitus’s day
Wake me up
To look at him again…

Nuna ney, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu ney
Nuna ney, nuna nuna nuna nunu nunu ney

On a St. Vitus’s day
Wake me up
To look at him again…

On a St. Vitus’s day
Wake me up
Once again, to look at him…

...translated by Lavinia

* Vidovdan (St. Vitus's Day) 28th June > http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vidovdan

After a while

2008-05-10T13:11:00.005+01:00

"After a while you learn the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and
that company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up
and your eyes open and with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow`s ground is too uncertain for your plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.

So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you will learn that you can endure that you really are special
and that you really do have worth.
So live to learn and know yourself.
In doing so, you will learn to live."

Veronica A. Shoffstall

Easter

2008-04-27T11:34:00.005+01:00

To All Orthodox Christians Wishing a Very Happy Easter!!
Christ has Risen :)!!

Descent into Hades, detail of the Resurrection fresco from Serbian 14th century monastery Visoki Decani, Kosovo-Metohija, Serbia.

...

2008-04-26T21:31:00.005+01:00

God..

May I go back
to my childhood ? ..

My heart was pure and innocent

and clear
like a dewdrop
on a mountain
grass.........

The Truth

2008-04-26T15:05:00.003+01:00

"Yes, I will leave you. It is better for both of us"
"Yes, life without you is so much better. Our energies collide and make us go slower"
"Yes, it is really better without you.. I will stop seeing you."
"Yes, I want a divorce. I feel how I wish to finally make things clear"

...

Who is this talking?
Who is the one promising?
Who is the one that is real? The one who lives here and now..

They are not the same.
And bodies never lie.

And can someone be free
when he is not free from his own weaknesses?..........................

My weakness by ~Lady-Sue on deviant ART

Frou Frou: Let Go

2008-04-17T20:51:00.011+01:00

Drink up baby down
Mmm are you in or out
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you

Excuse me
Too busy
Writing your tragedy
These mishaps
You bubble wrap
When you've no idea what you're like...

So let go (let go)
Jump in
Oh well whatcha waiting for
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

So let go (so let go)
Just get in
Oh it's so amazing here
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

It gains the more you give
and it rises with the fall
So hand me that remote
Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow

Such boundless pleasure
We've no time for later now
You can't await your own arrival
You've twenty seconds to comply

So let go (you let go)
Jump in
Oh well whatcha waiting for
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

So let go (mm let go)
Just get in
Oh it's so amazing here
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown (x2)

'cause there's beauty in the break down
Breakdown
So amazing here
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

ps. Frou Frou separated few years ago but their music still lives :)..

However, both Imogen and Guy have their own solo careers.. Guy, as songwriter / produceer, Imogen as, of course, a singer :)..

Thank You

2008-03-31T21:16:00.003+01:00

How about getting off of these antibiotics
How about stopping eating when I'm full of
How about them transparent dangling carrots
How about that ever elusive kudo

Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

How about me not blaming you for everything
How about me enjoying the moment for once
How about how good it feels to finally forgive you
How about grieving it all one at a time

Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

The moment I let go of it was
The moment I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it was
The moment I touched down

How about no longer being masochistic
How about remembering your divinity
How about unabashedly bawling your eyes out
How about not equating death with stopping

Thank you India
Thank you providence
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you nothingness
Thank you clarity
Thank you thank you silence

yeah yeah
ahh ohhh
ahhh ho oh
ahhh ho ohhhhhh
yeaahhhh yeahh

Love

2008-03-24T21:14:00.006Z

The Sun of Love just makes a tiny hole
in your defense walls
and the Ocean of Love
comes within...

Dazzled thoughts

2008-03-18T15:08:00.006Z

Not to expect anything from anyone.

To live your own life.

When you are continuing your life with wrong persons, and your lives actually "stands", and are not moving anywhere, your lives in the fact are going backwards.

To accept the loneliness.
Not to fight against the mud, against the walls of caterpillar.

To accept the mud, the caterpillar.
The loneliness.

Your own life, however it is.
Yourself, however you are.

Until you do not love yourself,
with that unconditioned love that you dream about,
till that the most supreme love is not the part of your relationship towards your life and life itself,
until you first are not the represent of that love,
till then
that love
in your relationships with other people,
will not enter your life.

So you have to become and be so in love with "Her", or with that the most pure, the most supreme, the most alive life,
so that no personal sacrifice is not and not to be hard...

So the story of unconditioned love
is in fact the story of Self-transformation.

To become a being which that kind of love evokes in others..
it means to be a deserving represent

and there all techniques are becoming only the instrument,
and you become your first pupil....

One needs to be transformed,
in order to live that love that he is foreseeing...

And you are becoming an instrument in the service of that love...

That means, to dedicate your life to that Love...

'before that, you cannot..
before that, you are just a child that is reading the fairy tales..'

And that means..
- how do you expect to "provoke" love in others
if you do not provoke it in you?

Do you expect others are stupid? Or unable to see?

It means that you be such, that you first truly love yourself,

and you will love yourself
if you live the best yourself that you foresee,
that you are able to be,
and if you make an effort into that direction
to admire your way...

And there is no shortcut.
And there is no easy way.

Which means again, that the wisdom is
when you chose actions which will in long term
make you happy.

And so we come here to the pure Intelligence.
and the qualities that are coming from her, such as
will, persistence, devotion...

Or, to the truthfulness of the saying,
that everyone is the creator of its own happiness.

Or, that if you are not happy,
for that you have to thank to yourself only.

Sadeness

2008-03-14T09:17:00.009Z

how can one escape sadness
when he cannot bare it anymore.............

ps.

Procedamus in pace
In nomine Christi, Amen

Cum angelis et pueris,
fideles inveniamur

Attollite portas, principes, vestras
et elevamini, portae aeternales
et introibit rex gloriae
Qius est iste Rex glorie?

Sade, dis-moi,
Sade, donnes-moi

Procedamus in pace
In nomine Christi, Amen

Sade, dis-moi
Qu'est-ce que tu vas chercher?
le Bien par le Mal
la Vertu par le Vice
Sade, dis-moi, Pourquoi l'evangile du Mal?
Quelle est ta religion, Ou sont tes fideles?
Si tu es contre Dieu, tu es contre l'Homme

Sade dit moi pourquoi le sang pour le plaisir ?
Le plaisir sans l'amour.
N'y a t'il plus de sentiment dans le culte de l'homme ?

Sade, es-tu diabolique ou divin?

Sade, dis-moi
Hosanna
Sade, donnes-moi
Hosanna
Sade, dis-moi
Hosanna
Sade, donnes-moi
Hosanna

In nomine Christi, Amen

Let us go forth in peace
In the name of Christ, So be it

We shall find the faithful in the
company of angels and children

Lift up ye heads o ye glorious gates,
and be ye lifted up ye everlasting doors,
and the king of glory shall come in.
Who is the king of glory?

Sade tell me
Sade give me

Shall we proceed in peace
In the name of Christ, Amen

Sade tell me
what is it that you seek?
The rightness of wrong
The virtue of vice
Sade tell me why the Gospel of evil ?
What is your religion? Where are your faithful?
If you are against God, you are against man

Sade tell me why blood for pleasure?
Pleasure without love?
Is there no longer any feeling in man's Faith?

Sade are you diabolical or divine?

Sade tell me
Hosanna
Sade give me
Hosanna
Sade tell me
Hosanna
Sade give me
Hosanna

In the name of Christ, Amen

The Darkness

2008-03-13T07:08:00.005Z

I love the dark.

In dark
some other senses but sight
are coming into place...

The Sea

2008-03-12T18:00:00.006Z

It looks like
everyone of us
is carrying a little of the sea inside..

You know,
the tears are
salty...

Zoran Đinđić

2008-03-12T10:54:00.006Z

I loved you very much.
Rest in peace, the one and only Serbian Premier.

photo by Sanja B.

Let go...

2008-03-12T10:16:00.006Z

When life hits you with its heavy hammer
just across your head and your heart

When you think there is no exit
but the holly peace of death

When you want to stop breathing
for every breath is just the pain

Let go...
Accept defeat and loss and misery..
Drown in sorrow and vanity and despair

Let go..
Stop pedaling..

Relax
Let tears roll over your face
do not stop them
do not make them stronger

Let go...
There is nothing outer
that will ever make you happy....................

despair by =Sinapsa on deviant ART

Tarot..

2008-03-08T19:59:00.008Z

It is Time

2008-03-08T12:41:00.013Z

It is time to become beautiful
as a butterfly
from the caterpillar
or a lotus flower
from the mud...

It is time to become
the best one can be

to make this world
more graceful.

The time is Now.

The Spring of this Existance
is waiting for our flourishing...

Door

2008-03-06T07:00:00.003Z

Not only to be a Lover

but as well

a door to the Unknown...

Dream

2008-03-05T22:18:00.004Z

It is so good to dream

as long as we clearly know

the difference between

the dream

and

the reality...

Bondage

2008-03-04T22:08:00.003Z

I want to be bounded

with boundless Love.........

Guru

2008-03-01T11:00:00.009Z

You and me in this moment
Light and darkness.

Touch me...

Angels and Demons

2008-02-29T23:18:00.004Z

Are we all
just defeated Angels?...

And this is what Albanians did with our churches on Kosovo

2008-02-19T21:57:00.005Z

Kosovo, Serbia: Church set in flames by muslim Albanians 2004

unfortunately, this was just an example....

my soul is crying....

2008-02-19T16:56:00.002Z

my soul is crying for Kosovo...Kosovo is Serbian and allways will be...... whoever has time can take a look at this website www.kosovo.net/default5.html the Serbian Art and Cultural heritage on the teritory of Kosovo.. Kosovo, where the Serbian country was born many many centuries ago.. where the Serbian Kings were crowned and lived ..............

Now USA wil say it is not Serbia?? For the sake of NATO biggest military base on the world?? The same USA that is fighting for oil in Iraq and killing hundreds of thousands of innocent people??
They took the advantage of the Albanian dream of Big Albania and used it for their own purposes...

But my dear friends, Kosovo, where my father was born as well, is Serbia and allways will be ...................